I’m going to make this quite brief, because I don’t want any of them to suspect that i’m doing anything i guess.

Where do I even start... I am asking for help. Any type of support. I don’t care as long as it’s actually helpful. I live in an environment of constant violence and resentment toward one another. My mother had me as a teen, and my dad is a deadbeat who has never even there for me or even lived with me. My family circle comprises of my mom, grandma, and uncle and cousin, who are all pos toward me and constantly stab me in the back and use aggression as well as my own weaknesses against me. This has been going on for all of my life, passed from generation to generation. I basically have no one and I even am planning to run away because I cannot take it anymore. My mother does not take my mental health seriously and each time I try to express my serious issues, she constantly compares herself to me and how she has it ‘worse’ than me and basically to suck everything up. She says she’s such a loving mother when she does that shit to me and also keeps her abusive brother (my uncle) around all because ‘he is family!1!1!!’. He fights with us everyday and has tried to kill me more than once. He is manipulative as hell and even makes my cousin act against me as well. My grandma is a materialistic, narcissist herself who raised her kids that way. So is my grandpa, who has favoritism toward my cousin over me. I don’t feel safe here and I feel as if it’s going to get worse because today my uncle yelled at my face and told me to ‘hit him and see what happens’.... all because I complained that he ate all of the food and drank all of the coke (we are poor) these past couple of years i get treated as a ‘rebellious’, ‘troublesome’ teen for showing aggressive behaviors that they as abusers have passed down to me. I am also trans, autistic with other comorbid mental disorders, a person of color who is hispanic.. my culture normalizes this kind of behavior toward their kids as they see discipline= beating the shit out of them so that leaves me in even more of a tight situation.

If you guys have any more questions and need more details on what I go through... please don’t hesitate to comment down below and I will be more than glad to answer. Other than that, please give me any good advice you’ve got. This is urgent and detrimental to my overall well-being.