I went to therapy today. Came home and it was obvious someone had been in my room, but I didn't say anything. Dad called me out and asked me to clean up some clutter in my room and take the dishes out of my room to wash them. I said that was fine (the dishes belong to them and frankly I have a lot,) and asked why anyone was in my room to begin with. He said the door was open and he walked past and saw how bad it was. I left it alone, started to walk away, and to my back he says, with a chip on his shoulder, "and that secretive shit isn't gonna fly around here." I turned around misstep and walked back, and said "That's BULLSHIT. No one goes in mom's room. It's not about being secretive, it's about having my own space." And my nmom flew forward in her chair and said "it's NOT bullshit!you can move OUT if you want your own space!!" And then added "Iiiii went into your room, because you left your heating pad on!"

So apparently, by being unable to care for myself mentally and emotionally, due to the PTSD, depression, anxiety and more caused directly by their physical, mental and emotional abuse, I'm not worthy of having privacy. I live under their roof so I don't DESERVE privacy. My best friend's EIGHT YEAR OLD is awarded more privacy than I. But then again, my best friend is a competent mother who doesn't completely disdain her children for being alive. My mother not only resents me for the mental conditions that her own ineptitude and awful behavior have caused, but she flat out LIES to my face, and then...what, tells the truth when it benefits her more?

Narcs fucking baffle me. I'm so glad I managed to get off with just the problems I have. If I was like them I would legitimately hope that someone would have the heart to kill me and remove me before I could hurt anyone else.