Hello everyone. Just a rant today. I just can't understand how so much negativity can be stored in my Nmoms body and head. It's so bad that it's funny to me. Today I walked inside after having a wonderful dinner with friends. Her instant comments: "your bag is open. Your gonna lose everything" and then " your gonna ruin your shoes like that". Such simple words but always so negative, bossy, and judgy.

She never says I love you. Always wants attention on her. Only her problems matter. And she never apologizes. I'm 23(f) now and I've grown to just ignore it. Most the times I nod and just answer in yes or no whenever I need to be near her. I stray away from conversations because they always lead to lectures and arguments. It's sad... My older sister (39f) is more of a mother to me.

Oh well. It's a shame she has so much negativity. I meditate. I reflect on myself. I try to be happy on my own terms. And honestly I'm happy for my life. And it's sad to me how much negative energy she has, but will never change. Oh well. Such a shame.

I can't wait to move out and completely get rid of bee negative energy unless absolutely necessary.