I now know for sure that I was raised by a narc dad. I have a strong fear that I might be a narc just like my dad. I feel that as I grow into my adulthood, I have not been able to have healthy friendships and I feel that it is related to my childhood. I cannot trust most people and every gift, invitation, or even compliment feels like a fake effort to get something out of me. I think that sometimes I say things just to make someone feel bad or use the silent treatment as a way to get someone back to me. For example, my friend said he felt bad for not talking to me as much the other day so he asked me to hang out just us two to make it up. I feel that I somehow made him feel bad by displaying displeasure and that this resulted in a forced hangout that he wouldn't otherwise want. I feel that my messed up childhood has poisoned every part of me and that I cannot escape my fate of becoming narcissistic myself. Are narcissists able to analyze themselves? Has anyone here felt a similar way and how likely is it that a narc childhood results in a narc adulthood? I think that my dad became what he is today because of my grandma who also displays narc qualities and manipulation.