But of course, that's complicated.

My home life is so toxic, and I've recognized this for a while now, but this morning was the last straw. I'm tired of always being torn down, even when I am trying my absolute best to keep my head up and accomplish things. The problem is, the thought of moving out is completely overwhelming. I don't drive, I have a part-time mostly summer job and the other job I have involves working with my sister, who has autism, at home (it pays really well so of course I'm reluctant to give that up and screw my sister over in the process since I'm basically helping her get her degree). I have a bunch of money saved up but I'm still in college for another three semesters and I have no idea how I'd make it living somewhere else if only because of transportation and needing to pay rent, tuition, and for food. I'd need to make more money during the semester, I guess, if I can't work with my sister, but I don't think I can manage that on top of school. :(

I can see that I need to break it down somehow, but I don't know where to start. I'm not good at being organized so that makes it tough. I also know that my Nmom will try and guilt me into staying here, but I know that I can't. I just don't know what to do. Please help.