I have still not responded. But that won't stop my momster from texting again.

This one is a bit longer. it reads: You have my word that I will never guilt trip you again. I am sorry I did that. It was wrong and I want to make things right for the whole families sake. You will not hear me argue for any reason, those days are gone! Wish nothing more than to have a healthy relationship with all of you.

At first I'm thinking that this is a step in the right direction. Is that an actually apology? An I'm sorry without a "but" or "you feel that way" following it? Yes! Yes it is. I still don't respond because I still don't feel like talking to her. Yeah, she said she's sorry for guilt tripping me. But what about all those passive aggressive posts on facebook. What about having my family and her friends believing I'm a horrible person for keeping my son away from her. Lying to my grandma about me. WHAT ABOUT TRYING TO MAKE ME BELIEVE MY DAD WAS DYING?? Is she sorry for that? Probably not. I doubt my dad even knows what she did because she sure wouldn't tell him that. My dad only believes what she is telling him and he won't even listen to what I have to say. But, whatever. I can't do anything about that. He has to make his own decisions.

Anyway. I thought for a minute that my mom was offering a legit apology....until I scrolled up through our text messages. Just needed a reminder of why I wasn't talking to her I guess. I donno what made me do it. Scroll up past the part where we were talking about my dad to the last thing I'd sent to her.

My last message was pretty long, but part of it said "the only thing I feel like talking about is you acknowledging that you were trying to guilt trip me, and for you to promise that you won't do it again"

She must have scrolled up through our last texts too. She's not sorry. She's only telling me what she thinks I want to hear. Well eff her. I'm not falling for it.She hasn't changed at all. Hopefully she learned that I will no longer tolerate her craziness, but knowing her, probably not.

Thanks for reading this. I really needed to get all that out. Love you guys.