move back in countless times at this point because I can't survive on the minimum wage jobs I can only seem to get. Every time I moved back in, it's like the abuse would get worse. My brothers helped her stalk me, one of them ended up attacking me and they'd lock me out whenever I'd try to leave the house. They wouldn't give me a key and wouldn't let me get my mail. At some point, before the last time I escaped, they'd hide fiod from me and toiletries. Getting and maintaining a job while living with them was extremely difficult.

Recently, I reached out to my older brother for help since I have been living in Airbnb's just trying to keep afloat. He didn't respond and instead, my abuser emailed me and said to reach out to her if I needed help. I don't know if she set up accounts online pretending to be my brother or if he told her.

In addition to all this, she was a pervert towards me my whole life as well.

I just feel so messed up and I've been feeling very suicidal lately, I feel like I'll never be able to have the peace or stability I want and I just keep moving from one messed up situation to another. I don't know how to interact with people because of all the isolation I went through and people always end up ignoring me or being mean to me for some reason, so I think I rub people the wrong way.

My life sucks right now and I don't know what to do. When I emailed her back about my situation, she keeps incessantly sending responses telling me that she'll help me find a place and that she'll help pay for my rent, and "show me around" even though my living situation is pretty dire and urgent. She keeps pressuring me to respond to her messages (I went no-contact last time I left home) but I don't trust her. She's been such a creep towards me my whole life and I don't like that I have to go back to the same person who ruined my life for help because I have no support system. She also turned my family against me because I tried to tell everyone what she did to me, and no one would believe me.