Im 27 year old guy. I just need to vent about my mom to anyone who will listen. Iv been in therapy for 7 months so far and have been doing self reflecting/meditating for about 10 months. I cut my mom off 2 years ago. I recently tried to reach out to her, to have a coffee admit her wrongs and listen to why I cut her off in the first place, and give her another chance to be my mom. I gave her 3 weeks to think about it. I spoke to my therapist to get her opinion, she said go for it but dont expect an apology or anything. So instead of saying to my mom I want to see her again. I decided that its better to not see her as all of my progress would be for nothing and be diminished( i have a pattern of getting close and then pushing her away, I stopped it from happening again, I have BPD.) Her text back to me was that she agreed that she doesn't want to see me again either. So it just goes to show she cant be accountable for her mistakes and cant actually love anyone, cuzz she doesn't think she does anything wrong. Im so sad with no motivation as my body is in shock for the last couple days since she agreed no contact. Ugh I feel so terrible that I will never have my moms love 😓😓😓.