I'm 20m and I dont know how to assert myself, I have 0 confidence, low self esteem. I'm also pretty sensitive and "weak" for a guy. Mom always did stuff for me (ex. Ordered my food at restaurants until I was 12). I never really learned how anything worked in life. Could never talk to mom in the evenings when Dad was away because she'd be too stressed out, she would yell at us for going to the bathroom after bedtime. Mom criticizes everything with judgement, am always scared of getting criticized so I never tell my parents anything. My dad drowns himself in constant work because Mom doesnt want to spend the time to learn how to get things done, Dads burnt out, especially with a broken leg for a year. He works finishes a task, Mom criticizes it while not knowing what said task means, Dad caves instantly because "he cant argue with her".

I love my parents but I'm realizing that I cant take their bullshit anymore and its pretty toxic. I just want to be independent. Is there any ways I can find a positive male role model? Someone who can actually teach me what real dads teach their sons (I'm 20 btw).