So me and mom get into it today just because she couldn't find my glasses. She starts bitching and crying just because i was walking away. Then she proceeds to hit herself to the point where her neck hurts and starts mumbling. Then I throw a controller and break it all to pieces(this probably wasn't right but yeah). Then I go outside and start punching the driveway all to hell and cause damage to my knuckle. Mamaw calls and starts yelling that I have to apologize to her for throwing the controller because that made it worse. And then starts saying, "She has problems and you know it." I said, "we all have problems. But mom can be a whole and a drug addiction and do other shit and you be okay with it just because of her BPD diagnosis." I'm bound to get my ass whooped just because of it, I'm sick and tired of it. At this point I really don't care what happens to her or the family(except for my brother). I'm sorry for saying that in case it's a trigger, but this isn't okay. It's making me question whether I'm the problem or not because it seems like everything I do, it's a trigger to her and the family.