I naturally communicate with people and I'm a sensitive person, yet I know that is unfeasible with my mother. I have to repress my thoughts and ideas if my mother is hearing because she's dumb as a rock, takes everything personally and is always denying any wrongdoing. I feel my good disposition and personality is being eaten by this person, and I feel stuck home at 22 years old as a university student.

It's just fucking infuriating because she behaves as a stupid child, today I told her about the inconsistency of her words and she ended up breaking down screaming that "I don't know anyting her" and that she'll "go other way when she sees me after going out home". A bit after she comes at me and speaks as if nothing had happened, however she's speaking to herself as it's quite obvious to a non-delusional individual that I don't care minimally about her.

How ridiculous she has to be to be saying that with her own child? And denying wrongdoings, I honestly don't understand if she honestly is clueless to that thing or if she has so much shame in her brain that she can't process that stuff.

Yet I got to endure this as I'm ending university and haven't had a job, the situation is complicated where I live and I wan't a lot to get out from home and don't see her for a long time.

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