In therapy and healing from my narcs. This entails alot of reflection, and there are certain moments where I'll be doing something and the fact that I have freedom hits me again because I couldn't do this thing as a kid. It just happened so I wanted to share, and also get y'all's experience.

I am unapologetically loud about the music I listen to, how funny I find a movie/show, or just when I want to be. Growing up two big things were not being super loud, and my father hated the female artists I listened to. Even fucking Beyonce. He had these ideals on who I was supposed to be as his son (spoiler alert: I'm trans and his daughter lmao). We would argue all the time about me listening to them, and him not liking the fact that I did. He tried to judge me on their lyrics, which is hypocritical given the music men make lmao. I was showering for a party just now, belting one of my favorite songs by my favorite female artists. I was so off-key some of it didn't even sound human. However, I just laughed because it made me happy and smile, and I had so much energy and love for this song that just singing it couldn't contain it. When I caught myself, I got scared for a second, but then realized I live alone. There's no one here to judge me. My parents aren't even in my life anymore. This is just for me. And it makes me proud to see where I've come from. ;