(22F) Probably not nearly the worst one here, but all through elementary and middle school my dad would call me fat, I have vivid memories of him driving me to school telling me “don’t come running to me when you can’t get a boyfriend” and he referenced some movie saying he’d have to start “rolling me to school” he would say this all the time, and take food off my plate saying “he’s saving me.” I didn’t eat a lot, I wasn’t really allowed pop or sweets, and looking at old pictures I wasn’t fat at all, I was healthy, growing up. In middle school I started cutting, he found out, called me into his room one morning while he was half sleep in bed, he asked to see, then just said “your fucked up” and went back to sleep, I cut again that night.. A couple years ago I was talking to my dad, and smoking a joint, I brought up the stuff he said about my weight as a kid, he denied it, gaslit me and tried to make himself the victim (by saying I was playing the victim and fabricated it) that’s when I started to resent him. If I ever got mad at my dad he’d shut down and act like a child, my mom would have to tell me he thinks I hate him and to go say sorry to him, but usually it was my weight and I refused to apologize for getting upset about the mean stuff he said to child me. Because of this I grew up struggling with body image all my life. My dad never really hugged or said he loved me, unless I did, but even then it was always forced. He’s got me 1 birthday gift all my life, tho he’s bought 4-5 guitars, I play music too but he’s never got time for me, I’m expected to nurture my relationship with my father, since I was a kid this was expected of me, I don’t bother, I can’t get past the resentment I have for him, I never felt loved by my dad, and my mom just follows his every will. I’m not no contact with them but have been distancing myself, mostly from my dad, it has always hurt me that my dad wasn’t close to me, I always felt like a dissapointment, like he wanted a better daughter who was prettier and skinnier and I wasn’t good enough. I was bullied in school but my dad was my biggest bully..