I have learned that I have a very different expectation of misogyny and humiliation than the people I've come across on here. You don't want to pull your nose up and snort like a pig. You don't want to bawk like a chicken for me. You don't care how I feel because I don't meet your archetype of a misogynist. You just want to be called slut and have attention, and then toss me aside when I inevitably don't meet your expectations of a dom or a sadist. I hate expectations.

It's funny how the misogyny is always "call me slutty" and "use me how you want" and maybe even you'll call me "daddy" if I'm lucky, even though I don't really like it usually.

I'm not interested in your patriarchal type of fantasy. I don't want to train you. I don't want to fuck you. I don't want you to tease me until I make you submit. I'm not an "alpha." I find that stuff gross personally, but it's ok if you like all of this stuff.

It just feels too vanilla. Why can't we play with more subtle forms of misogyny like where I tell you to smile, or even better, and the point of this post: you can just help me masturbate.

To appropriate incel terminology: it's always fixated on a "chad" form of misogyny, but I'm more interested in an "incel" form of misogyny. I'm not an incel, but people wonder it because I have themes to my character that are parallel to the stereotype of an incel. Even better, I find it cathartic to play into those themes.

Like when you think of an incel, I don't know about you, but I imagine someone socially awkward and autistic. Desperate. Constantly horny and with demented attractions possibly fueled by porn. An interest in irl east asian waifus that fuel an "infernal lust." A fixation in the human body, but one that goes deep into anatomy: I will fixate on everything head to toe. It just depends on my mood. Whether it be an uncomfortable fetishization of a young looking face with asian eyes, or the painted toenails and the elongated calves that come with it. Where is the misogyny that says I can collect this woman's hair? Sniff her towel after a shower? Masturbate with the hand the shook hands with a woman?

What if I wanted to stalk her? I want to pursue love, but she would think I'm creepy like a lot of the women on here just don't like me, which is ok, but that doesn't mean I want to stare from afar or watch them sleep any less. Like obviously, any rejection would make me just want to do it more, and hope cough cough that my virgin-ness comes off as cute. I want to make sounds that disgust me, but she would find cute.

What if I wanted to rape a woman? I don't want to fuck you with penis jesus fucking christ, let me explore you how I want. I don't care about your pleasure or lack of. Like an incel, I forgot to mention a lot of them are autistic especially moreso than compared to the general population. Let me exert my frustrations with society treating me as not man enough by sliding my fingers over her skin. I want her to look like she could be my (adult) daughter because she's like an extension of me and worthy of molestation. I want to know the textures of her orifices, when I'm ready, and I want to know what her hair feels like when she doesn't shower. I want my asian daughter to hide her eyes funnily enough, with a blindfold and a gag to match. She should be bound, not because she wants it, but because I want it. She will not be trained. I hate training. She should be rubbed against like a body pillow, and popped like bubble wrap hehe.

I lied. I guess I don't know what I want with this post, but I lost my wingwoman who was very open to my depravity despite being very vanilla and platonic on her end. She helped me with my autism understand women. And then with my ex, she allowed me to perv on her, which means a lot to me.

I don't want a competition thing. I'm looking for wholesome friends or, just have to add this because I'm autistic and incel-ly, even a girlfriend from these horny posts like last time. I love it when they don't hate me for wanting to hurt people, and then don't hate me in another way for not wanting to hurt people in the way a daddy ought to like. I'm sorry, but women look hotter in a wheelchair or without any limbs than without any skin on the ass- from whips.

I guess I'm looking for something empathetic to my perspective that a lot of people would see as objectifying, kink dispenser-y, and wanting a bangmaid or whatever. What if I do? What if I want that? Why can't it be consensual? And so, ig I'm looking for people who would say, yeah there's nothing wrong with your high level of promiscuity or idealistic desires or daily hentai usage if it's your hobby and makes you happy. Because it is and it does, and yeah whatever, I said my piece. Autistic ramble over haha. Sorry if it was cringy. Blahblah... um kind people feel free to hmu :)