Hey, I'm a switch who leans sub. I have issues exploring being dominant/sadistic because usually a lot of my insecurity gets in the way and the other person usually just gets bored. I'm trying something new, so I'm looking to have some fun with someone who is patient. I'm not a good conversationalist, but I am constantly thinking deep so maybe you're into hearing my perspective on something. We can talk about whatever you want, but I want you to be ok with me jerking off and detouring about weird thoughts... like eating your pubes so that a part of you is in me or wearing your skin or extreme stuff like that lol. I want to say creepy stuff like a serial killer would say, and I want you to be ok with it. I have a lot of taboo fantasies that come flooding in rapidly in the moment, so it can be hard to focus on conversations sometimes. And if you're wondering, the insecurity/desperation/depression is real, but I'm not here to really hurt anybody. I'm no killer lol. That part is played up. I might not even go the snuff route. I might just obsess over you because you're a woman and I'm a loser or "incel" or something. We can talk about how we want to have this conversation and limits and whatnot. I'll ask you to do stuff like sending nudes maybe, but I don't expect you to actually do it. I do expect you to give your asl and to tell me what your intentions are in responding though. I've been forward with you about what I'm looking for, so I'd appreciate the same from you. Hmu if you want to get weird :)

P.S. I have a thing for fetishizing race as you can imagine. I don't want to be the same boring white guy looking for an east asian woman lol, but cough cough 'tis my biggest race kink unfortunately. Thanks weird japanese porn :D

P.S.S. I put seeking roleplay, but that's just because there's no "let's maybe be kinky online friends with benefits or just see where things go" tag ;-;