I'm going to start off with making something clear. I am open to different types of relationships. Friendship, Romantic relationship, kink(ship), or a combination. We can discuss and make it clear what you're looking for and I have no intention of trying to force anything else. Consent is key, and I wouldn't want to make you feel uncomfortable.

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Now the main topic for this post. I am looking to discover who i am as a person and my gender identity. I'm a guy, never been super masculine, but clearly a guy. I don't feel like a woman and have the need to transition, but would love to explore my feminine side more and just see exactly what's going on with me. I have experimented with guys a bit in the past, and while I enjoy the whole penis thing, I don''t really find guys sexually attractive.

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Backstory: About 10-12 years ago I had a mistress for about 2 years. At one point she started dressing me up. She would compliment me and tell me I looked pretty. I liked it. Fast forward, she had to move away but I had kinda still experimented with it and thought about it. But i had really only thought about it as a kink thing. Over the next few years I had a few thoughts about if I could actually become more feminine. Then I had a fairly serious Girlfriend for a bit. Then another that turned into marriage, and now divorce. During all that I still had some thoughts but pushed them down, because I had my life and i was content. But Now I have been thinking that maybe I wasn't, and now I do think I want to explore myself and just see who 'Me' is.

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What I want out of this: So I'm not exactly sure. Like I said up top, I'm open to different types of relationships, as long as I get to explore myself. But I would like someone who is very accepting whether I decide to stay the same ol' guy or become more feminine/androgynous, and someone who can help. I'd love to know how to be more feminine. Find the right fits that look god on me. Learn how to do makeup. Just your knowledge, experience, and companionship. And yes, I know makeup and clothes isn't everything about being a woman/feminine. But it's a start and I'd love any wisdom and encouragement you can give me.

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A bit about me: Average height for a guy. Shortish brown hair. Fairly athletic and thin. I do have fairly masculine features, but everyone thinks I'm a fair bit younger than I actually am. I am generally a very laid back and calm person. More introverted but will still go out and do things. I don't really enjoy clubs, or like dancing, it makes me feel awkward. I am a big nerd. Scifi/fantasy books, boardgames, video games, horror movies. I'm also pretty handy and crafty. I used to work construction and renovation and I still work in a kinda related field. I do have a stable, full time job. The hours are all over the place which can be a bit annoying. But I can make time. I won't be able to host anything or have people over right now with my current living situation. But I will be moving in the near future, and then I'll have no issue. Lastly, I have good hygiene and I'm drug and disease free. I don't have any tests I can show but I've only had one partner for the last 6ish years, and I've been her only partner.

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I'm not sure if Reddit is the place to look for something like this, but I'll give it a shot for now. I am nervous and a bit scared about this whole thing, but I'm guessing that's pretty normal haha. I'm looking forward to hearing from people, and if you have any questions or want some more info, I'll gladly answer. Thanks for reading all this and have a great week!!