{TW: Body Shaming. Simply do not read if you are not curious about being humiliated as a sexual act.}

{Men who want me to abuse your mother/sister/girlfriend/teacher, I have no interest in that sort of thing. Please move on.}

Hi.

I get off to some fucked up things. And almost all of those things have to do with a woman being degraded and humiliated.

There was a time I used to feel terribly guilty over being aroused by that. But there's something deeply and consumingly erotic about a woman having her dignity assaulted. The guilt was rather consuming too, but ever since I learned that there are some women (even if only a minuscule fraction) who also want to experience these same fucked up things, I have been having fun.

Physical assault is exciting, of course. I enjoy slapping her for all sorts of reasons. Because she gagged, because she is not wet, because she is wet, because she begs to be slapped, because she doesn't beg to be slapped, they're all good reasons for a willing woman to be slapped. Other forms of (safe) physical hurt is gratifying, too. Her ass wiggling when the rope strikes is pretty. Her whimpering and curling up is beautiful.

Notwithstanding, the cruelest thing I have done was to body shame a sub. It got extreme as she kept coming back for more. Extremeness is not really about the degeneracy of the act as much as the fact that she really suffered during scene. It was clear on her face that every insult I spat at her was stabbing her emotionally, and she knelt at my feet and took it all in. Both the insults, and my dick. I'd watch hot women and tell her about them as she blew me. Then she'd take cum on her face.

It was all the more a mindfuck because she was an actual gorgeous cute face. Naturally pretty lady. But a big lady. And she wanted to be punished for it. It was evident that she went through mental anguish during session, but she would relax afterwards during aftercare, and often left saying "I had fun" with a smile. It was a strangely wholesome and hot. That situationship has ended now. But I have been chasing that high ever since. CNC is fun, agreed. But deep consensual humiliation is a different drug.

Personally, I value intelligence over looks. But sadistically, I have realised that very few things hurt women the way being criticised for their looks does. Call a girl stupid, she might be offended. But call her tits tiny, it's an affront at a more personal level. Most women won't take it, and indeed shouldn't.

But some women fantasise about it. And that's the woman I am looking for.

{Be female. Be adult. Make your decisions yourself.}

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