Hey! First will be Basics, then Interests, then What I'm Looking For. (This post is partly NSFW and TW)

Basics:

• I'm 24 afab (Detrans/Questioning), Bi, Poly (I date separately, this is not a package deal), Christian, mostly Vegan, politically Moderate. I have OCD, Depression, Panic Disorder, Autism, and a skin-picking disorder. I am white, btw.

• I have a STEM degree, and a good resume. I'm trying to figure out moving out of country, and whether to go to grad school or get a full-time job. There's a lot up in the air right now, and I've been feeling really alone in all of this because of issues with parents/Bf, and then my friends not being available to talk a whole lot, I realized I really need people who are there for me!

• I have 2 doggos that are my pride and joy! :3 an 80 lb mutt, and a 40 lb Beagle mix (both very snuggly and loving, and I frequently walk them). I also have 2 aquariums: I have a school of 18 miniature catfish that I am in love with <3 (2 of them are offspring, and I have 3-4 variants), and in the other tank: a female Betta, and 3 sibling Ghost Shrimp I raised myself (I think the shrimp look too translucent for the Betta to care about them, lol), and lots of snails/some plants in both tanks. We also are taking care of my brother's cat, and she's okay for a cat I guess (not the biggest cat person overall, sorry!). I'd love bunnies or rats, but too busy rn. In the past, I've also had a snake and hermit crabs (but realized "late" in life that as cute as reptiles are, I just really, REALLY like fish/shrimp xD like whole nother level of liking them)

• OCD has been the single biggest hurdle for me throughout my life and I've had trauma and resulting chronic suicidal thoughts at times because of it (and 2 attempts). I have a therapist and a med-provider, and when I'm not Depresso, I enjoy life sometimes... weirdly enough! I kind of go through phases of being really depressed about OCD and Panic Disorder, sometimes lasting for months. I'm okay/safe/not depressed right now, but I expect it is once again, temporary.

• I drive, live at home still (but trying to move out asap, to another country, could use advice ;w; ), got good scholarships so no debt, occasionally drink, and no illegal drugs but open to legal alternative OCD treatments.

• (These next 3 paragraphs are mainly for relationships and not so relevant for friendships) I'm 5' 6", 159 lbs (lost 20 lbs recently and still losing, long story), white, brown hair/eyes, hair is kind of in between lengths, may dye one day. No tattoos/piercings (...yet?). Grew up underweight/barely normal, and probably returning to that as that was my baseline, so back to being a surfboard soon :p I have always been confident about my body, btw. <3

• I've messed around some (with a small handful of people), and I'm into some really kinky shit (ask me), and lean dominant (depending on the person). But still technically a virgin. I am willing to get into details about my history and I'd like the same! Are you ashamed of being a kissless, handholdless virgin? Step right up, that's the way I like 'em ;3 Disclaimer: just started on an SSRI again, so libido might end up tanking again... but not sure yet. In any case, I usually find it a turn off when people take the reins in terms of sexy things or act overly interested. If you do this, you'll be cock-blocking yourself. I like being the one leading this stuff, at my own pace, on my own terms (if you are also interested of course).

• I also have a dominant personality, to say the least -- I have and will make plans, and ask people out (although in this case, either person asking out is okay with me). I want to be the one to propose some day. I am clear with communicating my needs, and I call out bs. I like being the one to make decisions, from where we eat to bigger decisions. I am very interested in having a 24/7 power dynamic, both SFW and NSFW. I like having a subby manservant (or womanservant). I'm the furthest thing from low maintenance -- I thrive on attention, affection, being waited on hand and foot. xD When we get serious, I want to be prioritized and be the most important person/thing to you in life (after God, if you are religious).

Interests:

• I effin LOVE Pokemon!! I've done TCG, VGC, shiny hunting, RNGing, collecting memorabilia (ask me about my plush collection!), etc. I mainly do Showdown Random Doubles/Triples currently. My score kinda sucks right now but made it to 1700 on the ladder before so at least I'm good sometimes :P

• Animals! I love my pets so much <3 and I eat Vegan a majority of the time, I'm not perfect 100% however. When I have my life a little more together, I could see getting involved in Animal Rights activism (I've never even been interested in activism until now), or volunteering with a shelter. Animals are basically irl Pokemon, and they're so precious and deserving of love <3

• I'm intermediate at the piano! Years of practice. I'm a beginner with the kalimba and singing. Hoping to learn the ukelele.

• I like drawing people, especially hair/faces! (Mainly in a manga/cartoon hybrid style, occasionally realism) Also want to get into drawing animals.

• I like Steven Universe, Gravity Falls, adult cartoons, kid cartoons, documentaries, and horror! Just finished Scooby-Doo Mystery Incorporated, and highkey don't want it to be over :(

• I like reading non-fiction aimed at personal growth, improvement, or learning (I read about habits, happiness, willpower, social media use, philosophy, math, etc.).

• I've dabbled in web development.

What I'm Looking For:

• Not okay with banter, pointed "jokes," not being able to apologize, not being interested in growth/exploration as a person, or lacking basic human respect/empathy. Emotional skills are VERY important to me. If you don't want to help me if I'm really down or have suicidal thoughts sometimes, then sorry but I'm not interested, because I want someone there through thick and thin. I'm not a simple person, I tend to need emotional support (and if I'm fond of you, I can be moderately clingy and uber affectionate too :P)

• Easygoing -- I like to be the one making decisions, and don't do well with other "strong" personalities. Forgiving -- I don't like people who cut off others easily once we get to know each other well. I don't consider myself a good person for a few reasons, unfortunately, but I still try to do the right things, and I don't want people who would be quick to abandon me over an argument or not seeing eye to eye. I have friends I've known for 14 years, 9-10 years, 6 years... once we get past a trial run, I like people who stick around longterm. (If we're to be in a relationship) Submissive including in a SFW way -- I absolutely love subbies! <3

• To the front of the line: feminine/androgynous guys, fellow girls with Aspergers, and people with long luscious hair 🥰 I am attracted to both thicc and thinn, short and tall. <3 Don't like hairy, including facial hair, sorry :c If you don't meet these preferences you can still reach out because this might not be comprehensive and I'm also looking for friends too!

• If you're interested in more than a friendship... I may end up gaining weight (I like being fat sometimes), I will get old over time, and once I move to a more accepting country (NOT in the US), there's a chance that I'd take Testosterone again (don't know yet at this point). I want someone who these things wouldn't bother and would love me for me.

• I'm okay discussing touchy topics (religion, veganism, philosophy, etc.), in good faith, as long as it's approached maturely, compassionately, and with a desire to learn. I consider myself Christian, but not necessarily in a traditional sense; I wouldn't be surprised if we are living in a matrix, some flawed 4th grade science fair project of a "higher" being, but ultimately above that I believe there is an actual, good, loving, highest being, if that makes sense. I am open to unorthodox interpretations of reality. I am also very interested in NDEs and Universalism (really don't know if it's correct, I'm not a theology expert, but it is what seems right to me personally, that love will prevail -- just don't take my word for it xD). As for veganism, it's simpler: I love animals and don't want to cause them a life of pain just for my pleasure, I want to take care of them. Philosophically, I lean Utilitarian, but definitely not 100% as there are some things I just can't justify doing.

• Unfortunately I'm kind of burnt out on politics right now so not in a place to discuss that at length currently. At this point, my biggest political issue is moving far, far away... lol. But I know people will care about values, so: My friend said I'm "politically homeless" as I don't fit neatly into a major party. Expect to disagree on major things! Regardless of your party.

• I use Discord but might switch to Signal at some point. Although, it'd be nice to get back into phone calls as well! I'm okay trading pictures of ourselves, but only when each of us are ready.

Thanks for reading and please send me a Chat message!!! Even if only some of this resonated with you. But yeah, I can't wait to meet you!