You know, I used to look forward to weekends. It meant not having to work, staying in, playing games and just chilling out. I was comfortable being alone because it meant I didn’t have to face the world and what it had to offer. The thought of being surrounded by people terrified me, because it would have drained my introverted social battery as well beat the sh*t out of my already terrible self esteem & confidence.

This past couple of years though I’ve been working so hard to heal my soul, calm my inner demons, build what little confidence I had, learn to love myself and finally find pure happiness. Me a few years ago vs me today are two very different people. Although I’m still introverted as ever and need alone time to recharge… I’m now ready to find the thing I crave for & desire the most, that being my person. Although these last 2 years have been rewarding as ever & resulted in the happiest I have ever been, I’ve always found that I’m so consumed by my own loneliness… I’m surrounded by a wonderful family, fantastic friends… but I’m still missing that person, my person, the person I want build a life with, form a deep, intimate connection with, with the ability to share our lives together, create memories, go on adventures with and create a future with.

This is why I find my weekends a little harder now to get through, because although I could do these things alone, being able to have my person, hand in hand would be so much more enjoyable.

I want to go out for a random dance, I’d love to find a hidden bar with a great cocktail, go skydiving, discover all those secret eating spot gems of Sydney, take a random trip interstate, have a weekend in watching our favourite movies or binging our favourite shows or playing games, heading out to gigs or festivals… just creating forever memories, enjoying life, enjoying each other & falling madly and deeply in love with each other every single day.

What I crave is connection, what I get from the dating of this day & age is people who are satisfied with instant gratification, mediocre conversations, lack of communication & supposedly time poor.

Maybe my person exists, maybe he does not… but unless I willingly put myself out there, how would one ever truly know.

So this is me… putting myself out there, opening my arms, putting down my walls, allowing my vulnerabilities to be exposed for the chance of finding my love, if you feel the same… then message me and let’s start creating our memories today!