I want to feel what it's like watching a woman have absolutely amazing sex with big cocks. Watching her fucked deeper, harder, and fuller than I can fuck her. Knowing that her insides are being stretched out and pleased in ways that I'm not big enough to give her. Hearing the sounds of her moans and her guts being hammered, knowing I can't make her sound that way. Smelling her sex strongly as she gets wetter and more deeply fucked than when she's with me. Watching the pleasure and passion on her face, knowing how amazing it makes her feel. Afterwards when I'm licking her creampies I want her to tell me how incredible it felt. I want to know what it feels like to give her my heart knowing that she'll cheat on me with bigger cocks because mine will never be good enough for her. I want to feel what it's like loving her and holding her knowing that another man is fucking her better than me. I want to know what it's like to be on dates with her while she's filled with cum from cheating on me for being small. I want to know what it's like to come home to her moans as she fucks bigger men in our bed. I want to know how it feels to slowly get addicted to her cheating on me, and to the feelings of sexual desire but also insecurity every time she fucks a better cock. I want to let her use her cheating pussy to make me feel cheated on for being small, to make me feel longing for the pleasure I'm not big enough to give her. I want to need her pleasure so much that I help her cheat and encourage it, being both turned on and deeply immaculated by it. Every time she cheats, makes me watch or listen, tells me about it, let's me find out about it on my own, or makes me lick her cheating cum filled pussy, it makes me feel more vulnerable and makes her sexual power over me stronger. I want to feel what it's like to surrender my heart to her knowing what slutty cheaty things she'll do with it, and let her make me hers.