I am in crisis and don’t know who to tell

Hey guys, back when I was 16-17, I was struggling with severe pressure to get the highest grades, I did nothing but study, all while I had to tolerate my mum continually abusing me. I couldn’t wait to leave so I worked hard to do so. By 18, I was studying at Australia’s highest ranking university, and was working. However, I became very depressed because my parents were stalking me, and being violent towards me. I tried to kill my self many times to escape their abuse, using many different methods. My friends and the hospital staff were supportive at this time.

The next year, Afyer finding out that my university classes were going to be held online, I decided to defer university, and just work and save up. I contacted social workers, and they helped ease the situation between me and my abusive parents. I enjoyed working so much, having money, and having full financial independence.

Then in December 2021, I moved cities to study. I was studying, working, and I finally had a social life again, here in Melbourne. I was happy. Just recently, I resigned from my old job, and I am struggling to find a new job. I haven’t freceived any government support. I tried to tell my ex boyfriend from Malaysia, but he is yelling at me. I don’t know who else to tell.

I am ready to die. I want to die. I hate having no job, no money, and abusive parents. I can’t tell friends or anyone aboht my situation. I have been calling Life line back and forth, and telling them that I’ve tried to lull myself many times in the past few days, but they’re not helping me. No one cares about me. I am worthless. I have nothing to live for anymore.

P.S. this isn’t funny, and please don’t blame my drug problem on my thoughts. I have been feeling suicidal for many years, on and off.