Hello... I [36F] am not sure if this is the right section for me to whine... But I just wanted to share... I was single for a long time in my life... I've only been in 3 relationships, 2 were only for a few months and another lasted 5 years which also ended in failure, I'm a well-educated woman, independent, built my own business, travels a lot, lives alone...

I always thought I needed a partner. Someone I can relate to. I don't know, I feel lost or depressed or very sad because I have no one to share my secrets with and my life with. I can certainly share with my good friends... But I realized that they wouldn't share such intimate things with me unless I asked... I felt, why should I rush to tell the story of my life... I feel like maybe I should have someone of my own who I can share things with and who will think I deserve to share those things...

I actually really want to have a good relationship...... But I knew I couldn't be with anyone if a relationship didn't make me feel respected and trusted, and I knew he was the one......

I can't be with friends with benefits, I can't get into situations, I can't be with someone just to pass the time. I really don't know what to do. I've met a lot of men through dating apps and even set up dates... This kind of dating never feels anything...

Even if I try to convince myself that I have to spend my life alone and that it's only temporary, I get really sad...

I don't know what to do... Even Posting here, this is the result of a long thought... I don't have much hope, but I just want to express it

I know exactly what I want, and I want someone who can be with me for a long time... ... If I have to put a time limit on this, I hope it is forever... ... So if you want to talk to me, you have to be prepared to be alone with me forever... ...

In addition, I prefer mature men, preferably he can be more than 10 years older than me, so I hope that men over 45 years old to contact me, if you are too young, please contact others, I don't want to delay our time... ...