I once had a painful experience.

I was betrayed by my ex-husband. Just because I was pregnant and could not meet his normal needs, he went with other women behind my back.

I used to love my ex-husband, and he and I met at a party. He didn't have anything at that time, but he took great care of me and always cared about me. He genuinely moved me and we got together. Six months later, he proposed to me. My father firmly opposed it, and he agreed to it when he was relatively young at the time, and we got together. He relied on my father’s financial resources to open his own wine factory. Everything is beautiful.

But on that day six years ago, I saw a message from a friend that broke the peace. My friend who was outside saw him entering the hotel with a woman and then my friend told me the address. When I finally found them, I found them naked on the hotel bed. At that moment, I suffered a huge blow and felt heartbroken.

I quarreled with them, and he defended her and slapped me. I started to fight back, but unexpectedly he hit me, completely ignoring that I was pregnant. Eventually, my stomach hurt so much that I lay on the ground and couldn't stand up. Until the ambulance arrived and took me to the hospital, the doctor who examined me told me that the baby was gone. I felt like my whole world collapsed and my eyes went dark. It was the darkest period of my life. Every time I think about the child I lost in my belly I feel sad and disappointed that he/she has not even seen this unknown world. I want to escape and even let myself forget that embarrassing past, but I still can't get rid of the pain caused by this incident, and I also have some psychological barriers. Not in the mood to manage my wine business. The company stopped growing and gradually declined. I completely locked myself away for nearly a year, but then my father called me and told me that the company was in great difficulty and was about to go bankrupt. Then I was startled awake.

I think these experiences and frustrations are my motivations. Whenever I feel tired, I use this to motivate myself. I would tell myself that I have no one to rely on but myself.