It's been a while since I've wrote one of these so I'm having a hard time figuring out what I want to say. Who I am, what I'm hopeful for, those kinds of things.

The list of contacts, the lack of conversation, there's a sense of loneliness that's been clinging onto me for a while. I've noticed-it's so hard to talk to people these days. Getting back to someone, waiting for a response, trying to have a conversation, getting to know someone, putting in the effort... The quiet acceptance that if they wanted to-they would. Or vice versa-if you wanted to, you would too. It sounds like I'm talking about a romantic relationship. Maybe just a little. That's how intimacy seems to be found nowadays. I guess I'm looking for something like that. Intimacy. I'm not sure if I'm looking for romance-I'm honestly open to it. Who doesn't wanna fall in love? But at the same time, there's so much of me I wanna work on. I wanna focus on. Being in love, falling in love is a bit inconveniencing.

I'm a Libra. I think horoscope is fun to think about, but I do believe there is power in those thoughts. I guess it's kind of like a self-fulfilling prophecy in the sense of making sense of the patterns. I try to be fair but, in some ways, this makes me indecisive at times. I think anything is possible is a good way to go about life-it makes life more fun and the possibilities are endless. That's exciting. I'm a very sensitive and emotional person. I like giving heartfelt thoughts to people I care about. I guess some people may think me to have delusions of grandeur, but I think that's where really great ideas come from. I wanna express myself creatively. Artfully. I'm a bit cringe. I don't think I get sarcasm-I get the idea, but the sarcasm doesn't translate well. I actually have suspicions I might be autistic. Sarcasm tends to go over my head and I think I make some ppl uncomfortable. I think if there's something I want people to know is I am always trying to be better person and I'd like people who are committed to their self-growth too.

I'm looking for, what I'm hopeful to find, how I think I'd like to proceed in my life-I'm trying to find someone to get to know. Someone I can talk to all day and there's more for us to talk about. Someone who I can learn about. Someone who I can never run out of things to talk about or listen to. Someone who, after a while of getting to know I find myself drawn to. Someone who I can find a sense of intimacy with. A bond. I think this is hard to find because there's a lot of different people out there. But not my kind of different. It's weird-because I won't know it till, I find it, or maybe I'll find it with a lot of people but even just one is hard to find. Someone who gets effort, emotional intelligence, has seasoning (growing) of their own. And acceptance. That's so hard to find. It's a bit discouraging to think about. If it's even possible. It's like a shot in the dark. Maybe there's someone to answer the call, that's what I hope. If this resonated at all with you, maybe you're what I'm looking for. Send me a message with your horoscope and if that's accurate so I know you actually read. That's points, yo. :D Have a great night, thanks for reading.