Basically, I wanna share myself with someone honestly, if that's possible.

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I'm Coppelia, or known by most of my circles as Indigo. I'm 18, turning 19 just around the corner, and I'm a computer science major going to college currently.

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I'm trans, but in a bit of a strange way, honestly. I dress like a 6th grade boy, but I have some ever growing boobs (they're my greatest assets (pun)) which tend to confuse everyone that I interact with. I'm also bisexual, but my attraction to women is far less clear cut than my attraction to men, so I tend to stick to dudes. I'm also black, which is important to me.

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This post must be prefaced by saying that I have some sweet depression. It's my driving force these days, not really because it's good, but more because it's the only thing taking up the space in my mind. I can't escape it, and as a result, it just shows up in my daily life. Think of it like a broken hand, but of the mind. It's an impediment, and a watered down disability. I want to make this pretty visible because despite this gaping hole in my being, the rest of me is a labyrinth of thoughts, beautiful memories and the overwhelming desire to become something better. These two factors are the most influential in my life, and push me to different sides of the spectrum. Either way, I'm working on it.

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Aside from that, I'm a can of sugar covered worms. I like to make art whenever I'm feeling inspired. I'm allergic to fish. I'm probably autistic, or somewhere on the spectrum. I like Japanese music. I'm a huge tech nerd. I love cats (so much!). I have a sugar addiction (basically, with the way I eat candy). Still, I'm built like a twig (not even a beefy twig, just a scrawny twig). I'm small, standing at about 5'5.

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I try to think deeply about everything.

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Most of what I'm searching for is just someone I can call up when I've got free time, and someone I can text when I'm not paying attention at work. I'm also a fairly sexual person, so I'd also like to be able to share that with someone.

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I worry that my intentions are not solid enough, but I wish to continue trying. I want to feel, and I want to feel others in a way that's both beautiful and healthy. Miss me with that codependency; I'm all about setting boundaries.

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I don't mind people that are pretty above my age, provided that you acknowledge that I'm basically still a child. There's so much I don't know about the world, and I'm constantly keeping this fact in mind as I interact with my peers who are older than me. It's an admission that I don't know whether someone has good intentions, but that I trust them to, and I'll hold them accountable if not.

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Let me know if you're interested or something, haha. I always find my sad self boring, but I at least don't want to be boring by myself.