Not necessarily a romantic relationship, but a relationship nevertheless.

Spent the majority of my quarantine laying in my bed, and I figured it's about time that I got up, lol.

If you're thinking about it, tell me, what's your favorite mouth texture? I'm talking "crunch" or "squish". I love the feeling of eating ice cream and then crunching the cold sprinkles, and while most of the time the two textures don't quite connect.

My music taste is consistent, but spans fairly wide. I tend to mostly listen to electronic music (some of my favs being Madeon, Pixel Terror, Porter Robinson), and similar, but not exactly, I also listen to people like Yunosuke, a Japanese Vocaloid EDM artist. Meanwhile, on hard days, I listen to Sunsleep, Dance Gavin Dance and other post-hardcore/rock artists. The list gets much longer, as well. I've got something like four-thousand songs in my library. I love to give and get music recs, so if that's something you're into, please, I'd LOVE someone who makes me long playlists of songs they like.

When I'm not thinking about the darkness, I'm usually thinking about making art of some kind. I'm a big digital artist, having made something like two-thousand pieces over the past 3. I run a bunch of art accounts for fun, and put all my stuff out in the hopes that it'll help me learn to express myself. It's a good timesucker, but it doesn't satisfy my creative itch always. The quickest way to my tiny little heart is asking to see my art. I have a bunch. Thousands. I'd love for someone else to tell me which pieces they find sweet.

I have some pretty shitty CPTSD, which usually makes it kinda hard to connect with people around me and my age. This mostly manifests in depression and lack of energy, hence why I don't really keep up with any friends I try to make. I have no reference for how online relationships are meant to be kept up, but I get the feeling that the jig I've been on super isn't it. And so, I've found myself looking for someone who does have the energy to poke me when I'm quiet. Someone that'll poke me every day, doesn't necessarily have to care for me like a youngn (seeing as most of the time, I am well cared for by my subconscious), but someone that wouldn't mind modeling a good relationship in which both parties build themselves up, working to aid each other in their mild emotional endeavors.

No trauma bonding. I've had more than enough for my lifetime, and really I don't want to wallow in my own sorrows or tie them into someone else so that I can experience "love". I wanna work to build myself, and compare notes with someone else who'll keep an open mind.

Relationships are work, and I always get the impression that I'm quite a spoonful of work. Not in the needy way, but the sense that this depresso (me) will often just walk off on their own if left unattended. I wanna keep up, y'now? I have no idea if my last few paragraphs have been making sense, sorry. Let me know if you've got some thoughts about it.

I like calling a lot of the time (whether it's video or audio), and while most of the time that doesn't vibe with having people around, I usually make space and time for it, so I'd be looking for someone who doesn't mind calling most or half of the time, at least. My voice is my favorite medium.

My sleep schedule is fucky, so while I sleep super late and wake up fairly late, I can be persuaded to sleep earlier to match up with a human that sleeps like uh...a normal human. I'm sure it'll get better once the college prep rollercoaster is over, but for now, I'll basically respond within 4 hours or so.

And yeah, I'm trans (also black!). Very important parts of my identity. I like to describe myself as a theoretical bisexual's dream, seeing as I've got the (now growing) tids, super mild facial hair, and the frame of a compact twink. Generally I'm into guys, but anyone remotely a little masculine is definitely my cup of tea, so dw about it.

Reach out if I sound like your cup of tea.