I've spent all day at work thinking about what to write on this post and yet I continued to run blank. I've had other post here before that had some success, yet here I am shooting my shot, to swallow my pride and have the audacity to be vulnerable just a moment. I've come to the conclusion that I should really just be genuine and write a love letter for whoever might read it. I figured that if I put my heart on the paper then maybe someone will pick it up. Sorry ahead of time if this gets sappy or I just ramble on, I have a lot I want to talk about today.

Who Am I

What a topic and where to begin. Let's start simple.

• 26 With a Birthday Around the Corner

  Birthday in August making me a Leo if that's something you're curious about. No I don't take anything a horoscope says seriously just harmless fun once in a blue moon.

• 5ft 11in or 181cm

  It took me a while to be happy with my height my dad was 6'3'' and my mom 5'8''. I landed somewhere in the middle. I always looked up to people that were taller, pun intended. I think height not only lends to basic attractiveness but helps with confidence far more than credit is given. I remember measuring my height with my father always trying to cheat on my tippy toes wanting to be just a few inches taller. Well it never happened, I grew into my height and decided to not fret over the things I can't affect.

• 225lbs or 102kg

  I'm down 10lbs over the past few months. I don't say that with much enthusiasm because it's just a small milestone along this road of weight loss. I can say I feel much better in general. This is with no effort put into the gym, just a change in diet and choice of water over soda. I know that if I want to push this I'll have to go to the gym to see some real change, just lacking the motivation to take it to the next level right now.

• Blue Eyes & Brown Hair

  Still trying to figure out what I want to do with all this hair, fairly certain the beard and "stache" is gonna go, not so sure about the actual hair. Should probably visit a stylist and get some recommendations. I figure I wanted a change from the normal short hair. If you have any ideas what to do with it I'm open ears. Sorry If I look sweaty in these photos, I was. Texas weather has not been kind this year.

• Full-Time Rural Letter Carrier for the United States Postal Service

  I take a lot of pride with my job to be honest. I like to joke with my regulars about throwing their packages out the window or peeling out in the driveway, but in reality I'm always try to be the smiling, waving mailman that occasionally moves turtles out of the road. I know that for many of my elderly regulars I'm probably the only face they see every day so I try to extend just a bit of kindness where I can. On another note I can change a flat in 5 minutes or patch it in 10, I've had ungodly amounts of practice at this. I'm generally good with cars due to my job and can service an odd assortment of things.

• A Massive Animal Lover

  I absolutely adore my dogs. I'll be moving into the city in the next month and it tears me apart to know I won't be able to take them with me. (They'll be staying with my parents) I know it's for the best since they have so much space to run and be free in the country versus being pinned up in an apartment for the entire work day. But damn I'm gonna miss them more than I'm willing to admit.

• Introverted and Generally Quiet

  I'm not big into parties or large group events, unless it's Dungeons and Dragons, but then I'm not really myself for those few hours I'm whatever character my players need me to be. Yes I'm a DM for a group of 5, we play absolutely ritually every week. We have trouble finding new players because of how regular our schedule is and our low tolerance for missing. Anyways back on topic. If I'm not around my small group of friends you'll be lucky to hear a word out of my mouth although I may try if the opportunity presents itself. On a first date you better be comfortable in awkward silences cause I am absolutely awful at small talk and generally being sociable with new people. I'm also generally stoic when it comes expressing any issues I might be going through, I don't like to give people my baggage. I've gotten really good at just brushing issues aside and not letting them affect me.

• Anything but Country Music

  I've recently been on a progressive metal binge (Dream Theater, Opeth, Animals as Leaders, Tool) but I've sprinkled in some of Logic's new work beside some of my favorite video game soundtracks. (Witcher 3, Wildstar, Tyranny) I'm beyond excited for Tool's upcoming album in late August.

• Books have Become a Beautiful Escape

  Over the past few years I've dug through countless books when I can, I've read a total of 45 books over the year of 2019 so far. the books range from high fantasy of "The Wheel of Time" by Robert Jordan, "Sherlock Holmes" by Arthur Conan Doyle, or "Grief is the Thing with Feathers" by Max Porter. If you want recommendations then I'm more than happy to oblige, if you have recommendations then you need to message me yesterday. I've really want someone close to me that can appreciate books as much as I do. I have this little dream of both of us reading the same book and us gushing about it over dinner or coffee. So let's start our own little book club, lets love the worlds we can't touch together.

• PC Gamer to the Core

  I remember my first SNES and just falling in love with not only the challenge but the worlds I ran into. I quickly got into RPGs which eventually led me to Diablo 2. From there it was no turning back as I grew with the industry into the monster it is today. I built my own PC that I'm typing this on. (i9-9900k, 2080ti, 32gb DDR4, and too many M.2 SSDs) I'm still a massive RPG fan but I enjoy most of anything that is popular.

• A Hopeless Romantic, yet a Realist

  I believe that love is something tended to like a rose in a garden, the time and effort you put into caring for that rose will reflect what you get out of it. I believe that if I'm patient and put myself out there then someone will look at me and say "Hey, he's pretty interesting lets see what the world has for us" and that would be the beginning of a wonderful story. Our story. I also understand that if I'm gonna try and make distance actually work that we have to find ways to be close with miles between us. Hopefully we can share books with one another, it would also help if you're into PC games since that could become a nightly thing for us. I'm perfectly content with this until the world can pull us just a bit closer.

• A Stupid High Sex Drive

  Honestly it can get in the way at times. I can "keep it under control," but forgive me if I get too flirtatious out of nowhere. I don't sleep around and generally have avoided that temptation in favor of something more intimate with a single partner.

I hope that pulls into perspective of who I am and what you can expect. Hopefully by now I've caught your attention and this will kick off into something that we can look back on in fondness.

I guess I should speak about what I would like from you. Well first and foremost I would like to avoid catfish since I've had some run-ins with them recently, a photo would be nice to include in your message but I'm not gonna require it if you're not comfortable with it. It will be difficult for me to take you seriously until I do have some form of verification though. Secondly, I hope you can invest into something, you are only going to get out what you put in. I understand if we don't click but don't miss an opportunity with any doubts that you could have done more. I'm going to put myself out there I trust you will do the same. If you have personal matters/opinions/events that you don't feel comfortable talking about then be open about your reservations and we can let those wait for when your ready to speak of them if ever. I won't press you. Thirdly, you need to be passionate about something. I want to listen to you gush about your day at work, this lovely movie you seen recently, or even about how your puppy looks at you when its time to eat. Your passions are what make you into something special don't be afraid to share. Lastly I ask that you're a non-smoker, vaping is okay. I do not smoke nor do I drink.

If you've taken the time to read all of this then thank you, I've spent roughly the last 4 hours just rambling to a computer screen in hopes of impressing a woman in this wild dating game. You've made my effort all the more worth it. Message me if I've caught your attention even just slightly, you never know where this world will take us.

Please include another messaging platform of your choice or ask for mine, I don't check my Reddit messages as often as I would like and I probably have a few missed connections from not being consistent enough with my messages on Reddit. If we move to another platform I promise I'll get to your messages much easier. Also please avoid messaging me from the IM thing.

Thank you so much for your time,

You're a wonderful person,

Zach.