So, I broke down and gave Tinder and Bumble a shot and both have (predictably) been dead ends, and so I am trying this once again. One reply on a previous post mentioned that it seemed like I wasn't just posting because I was bored and posting to kill time and that's absolutely true! I'm posting because I am looking for a real life connection to happen!

As for what I'm looking for and how I feel about various forms of relationships: I'm primarily looking for someone to date with the goal of a longish to long term relationship. In general, I'm not looking for marriage, but I'm not strictly opposed to it if things turn out that way in a few years. While it's not my ideal situation, something casual and physical could be acceptable in the short term. Honestly though, I am somewhat likely to catch feels that, if not reciprocated, would likely mean having to part company. But I'm willing to give it a shot if you're not looking to get into something serious.

Appearance wise, I'm a straight up big dude. 6'3" tall, and big. Big as in broad, but also as in overweight. I call it my double dad-bod. Slowly getting into better shape, but it's a work in progress. White guy, brown hair, grey/green eyes, and a red beard (ignore those grey strands, they're intruders.)

So, things I like. Video games, cuddles, cooking (nothing too fancy, unfortunately, and only when I'm not just cooking for myself), board games and tabletop rpgs, competitive target shooting, cider, camping, fishing, swim/float trips to the river.

I have nothing against partaking of the marijuanas, but for employment I operate cranes and forklifts and heavy machinery so I must abstain. I don't mind if a potential partner is into it, hell, I don't even mind if they smoke daily. But I do loath the "420 smoke weed erryday" culture.

So all that said, I'm just a lonely dude with a lot of love and affection to give. It's hard to traditionally date with my work hours and I'm socially anxious plus introverted to boot. I've been focusing on work for so long and not taking care of my social needs. I've wasted too many years because of it and, full disclosure, have never had a serious long term relationship, due to a combination of working too much and social anxiety. I know that's a deal killer for most, especially at 36, but maybe for some it won't be. On the upside, that means theres no crazy exes or baby mama drama in my life. Score!

Location is Vancouver, WA. But hardly anyone has heard of Vancouver, WA so I just say Portland since it's 20 minutes away. I work nights right now so my messaging times will be during those times mostly.