You know those people who tell you to do what you love and everything will work. Well screw those people. Apparently they never had to consider student load debt. Anyway I always loved understand why and it is why I obtained a PhD in physics. I only got one postdoc offer in Japan however Japan is not made for bigger people. Ohh yeah I forgot to mention I am heavyset. If you find the idea of Peter Griffin genetically mixed with a wooly mammoth as attractive then Im the guy for you. Anyway It took me a year and a half to get a job. I now reside in northwest Indiana (near Chicago_ where I work in the power systems industry. Basically I study reliability of bulk electric system of northern Indiana in real time by running numerical simulations (its sexy I know) . I have friends from highschool , college, and graduate school that I still talk to almost everyday but its not the same when you have no one to hang out with. I noticed it gets harder and harder to meet people the older I get which def hurts my chances of finding a relationship. A lot of individuals are like go hang out at the bars. Well the issue with that is that the distance between being drunk enough to approach women and completely wasted basically overlap. I will be honest I am overweight and I would be considered mainly a nerd. I do have some weird redneck likes which is a result of growing up in Kentucky. Right now I am trying to discover new hobbies that I can enjoy that doesnt include watching netflix or playing video games xbox one). A lot of hobbies I had were given up on due to graduate school. Anyway now I realize its getting to the point where I need to find someone to maybe settle down with but it seems the pool of women I am exposed to daily has shrunk to the point of not existing.