HEYOOOOOO it's Nana here! ฅ⁠^{⁠•⁠ﻌ⁠•⁠⁠ฅ} I’m genderfluid, pansexual, asexual, aroflux, and go by he/him pronouns! (●ˇ∀ˇ●) I’m here hoping to find something truly special; a deep, genuine, soulful and emotional bond that feels like family, even to a spiritual level, yet open to the sweet possibility of romance. My biggest wish? A caregiver who can also be my partner, someone who will walk alongside me as we create a life full of love, care, safety, comfort, magic, cuteness, dreams, and adventures ｡⁠◕w◕⁠｡. Someone who is soft-hearted, deeply empathetic, and nurturing.

What I’m Looking For: What I’m looking for isn’t the conventional type of relationship—romance is welcome, but it’s more important to me to find someone who can feel like family, where we uplift and genuinely care for each other. I need someone who sees the value in caregiving and is willing to offer that foundation of comfort, stability, and mutual reliance (⁠ㆁ⁠ω⁠ㆁ⁠). I want someone who won’t be scared off by my intensity, whatever conditions I have, however much I have to say, my hard days, my difficult life, but instead sees the beauty in my journey T_T. I want a caregiver, someone who would be my safe space, my home, my everything. Whether it is platonic or romantic. I want to have a life where I’m deeply loved and cared for in the ways I dream about. I want to be number one priority in my caregiver's life besides themselves. I want to be given undivided and unlimited affection and attention from my caregiver ♡⁠(⁠>⁠ ⁠ਊ⁠ ⁠<⁠)⁠♡.

My Dream Life with My Caregiver: In my vision, me and my forever caregiver would have a beautiful house, just the two of us (and perhaps kitties (⁠=⁠^{⁠･⁠ｪ⁠･⁠⁠=⁠)).} I’d have my own 2 rooms, one decorated in black and the other one in pink. Black for when I need to feel safe and invisible, and pink for when I want to embrace my inner child (my true self), my femininity, my softness. There’d be a pink tent in the room just for me. My caregiver would always be there for me—through the good and the bad, through every nightmare, every moment of sadness or anger or fear. They’d hold me close, wrap me in a warm fuzzy plush blanket, and we’d have plushies, bedtime stories, hot chocolate, snacks, comforting yummy foodies, cartoons... everything that feels safe and warm. It would be our little world, and nothing could intrude on that (⁠◍⁠•3⁠•⁠◍⁠)⁠❤.

As for who I am: I may be biologically 23 years old, but I’m a kid forever! (ノ◕ヮ◕)ノ✧ No matter what anyone says, I will always embrace my identity as a child! Life has been extremely tough, so please don’t make it harder by arguing about who I am. I’m a dreamer with a gentle heart, full of childlike wonder and curiosity, and I don’t want to hide that anymore! (｡♥w♥｡) When you interact with me, be ready for lots of questions—I’m a naturally curious kid who loves to know every detail! but I promise I’ll never ask personal questions without permission. Just understand that my curiosity is a big part of me. Also, I might babytalk a lot and often ask for reassurance! Please be the gentlest and kindest you can with me! (´｡• w •｡`)

I’m all about the little things: ambient lighting, dark gloomy weather, after rain, light rain, classic songs, cute cartoons, manga, and beautiful movies with deep meaning and moral values. I daydream a lot and love exploring everything from horror to rom-coms, and my aesthetic leans toward coquette, lolita style, emo, and fairycore. Also, I like to be called "kiddo"! (⁠◕⁠દ⁠◕⁠)

My Health: I suffer with SLE, C-PTSD, BPD, OCD, ADHD and possibly DID (T3T). Please research about all these if you want to talk to me (this is a must, and I will do the same for your diseases too). Please be the gentlest and kindest you can with me, and if you would consider talking to me, please do not just leave/neglect/abandon me after a certain amount of time with no explanation because that seriously will cause me incredible pain because of my BPD and it will take me a long time to recover (T_T).

My Values: I’m a feminist, socialist, pro-choice, atheist and I’d love to connect with someone (my future caregiver also family) and people (my future family) who share those ideals. I’m also sensitive, fragile, and intensely emotional—I feel things deeply. I have a rare depth of capability when it comes to empathy, care, love, connection, protection, loyalty. I care so much. I am willing to put myself on fire, go to the moon and back for the people I love. I love to give gifts and appreciation to the people (especially my future caregiver) I love as much as I can. I have deep passion for justice and belief in creating peace, love and hope wherever I can (⁠´⁠∩⁠｡⁠•⁠ w ⁠•⁠｡⁠∩).

Interests & Hobbies: Along with finding a caregiver and family, I’d love to find people to spend time with online (⁠◕3◕⁠). I have a list of fun activities we can do together! It would really help my mental health too since I’m isolated here in Indonesia ༼⁠;⁠´⁠༎ຶ O ⁠༎ຶ⁠༽. My interests are: Art, classical music, indie music, alternative music, pop music, history, literature, novels, manga, cute cartoons, j-style, Lolita style, dolette style, coquette aesthetic, emo aesthetic, alt aesthetic, gloomy aesthetic, gloomy weather, grunge fairycore aesthetic, documentary, horror movies, thriller movies, rom-com movies, drama movies, photography, beautiful/peaceful/quiet places, spicy food, boba, TikToks, cute pinky stuff, plushies, Sanrio, horror games, true crime stories, feminism, socialism, psychology, mental illness, coloring, drawing. I have a wide range of knowledge and can engage in conversations about various subjects Ꮚ⁠˘⁠ ⁠ꈊ⁠ ⁠˘⁠ ⁠Ꮚ.

I dream to write my own book about my life stories and make my own YouTube channel, streamer, and TikTok one day (⁠ﾉ⁠◕⁠ヮ⁠◕⁠)⁠ﾉ⁠*⁠.⁠✧

My untreated arthritis causes daily pain, so typing is hard, and I might not reply right away. I’m not ignoring you, just dealing with health issues and tough situations (⁠つ⁠ω⁠⊂⁠). Phone calls or voice messages would be easier for me if you're comfortable with that (✿⁠). I believe calls can help us connect and bond better!

Important Boundaries: - I don't want to interact with Republicans, Trump supporter, Right Wing, Pro-life, White Supremacist, Bigots, Sexist, Racists, Fascist, Homophobes, Conservatives. Please respect it.

• PLEASE. Do not ever talk about sexual stuff to me at all. That's so triggering, creepy, and makes me feel really uncomfortable. I will only talk about these types of stuff with my one and only partner caregiver! (⁠ノ⁠｀⁠⌒⁠´⁠)⁠ノ⁠┫⁠：⁠・⁠┻⁠┻

• PLEASE don't flirt with me. I don't come here for shallow interactions like that. I come here to find a deep connection with my future caregiver and my future family. So, if you’re not interested in building that level of closeness and support, please scroll on.

• No trauma dump or venting in my chat, please, unless I know you long enough and you get my permission. It can be very triggering and painful for me.

If you’re someone who values deep, soulful connections, and if you're interested in building a bond that blends caregiving, partnership, and warmth, then maybe we’re on the same wavelength. Let’s see if our values align and if we can create something beautiful, something truly worth nurturing ෆ⁠╹⁠ ⁠.̮⁠ ⁠╹⁠ෆ