Hey there Reddit, lately I have been having quite the time and I want to try and harness some of this emotionality and turn it into something positive, I guess.

Looking outside myself, I understand how senseless or hurtful that may sound to say I'm having a really hard time, given the range of human experiences and I'm over here licking my wounds over a broken heart but I guess I've always been a pretty big sap. I've been in two long term in person relationships (that lasted nine and four years respectively) and dated a few other people, I think there are things to like about me. I'll list a few of them below.

I think I can be intelligent about many things but also a total fucking dumbass. I don't take myself too seriously, but I absolutely will listen to what you're saying and take you at face value unless I absolutely know you're joking, because I'd rather be gullible than be a jackass. I'm very communicative and low maintenance in some ways, like I don't need to leave the house to be having an amazing time. I am very much a homebody and love to spend time with my person, simply existing in each other's space.

I used to read a lot, I haven't much recently. The last book I was reading was The Midnight Library and I didn't finish, maybe because it felt a little bit too close to home but I know I'll have to go back and finish it some day. To be fair, I'm also a huge sucker for emotional movies and shows so it's a bit hypocritical to be all "oof ouch owie, this hurts my feelings!!!" When I will rewatch stuff like Somebody Somewhere or The Royal Tenenbaums (my favorite movie) whenever I'm feeling low.

I'm terrible at remembering actors names, they're just people to me - I generally don't idolize many people, but I definitely do have those that I look up to but it's probably weirder than that. I admire people like Griffin McElroy and Northernlion and goofy white guys probably because I want to be like them. I have a dog and he is my only baby at the moment but I absolutely do want to have children with my partner whenever I do find them - sorry reddit, I know child free is a whole thing and it seems like these days nobody wants to have kids, but I've known since I was little that I was going to be a dad. I have a whole box of kid's books saved from my own childhood to read with them. I told my mom when I was 6 that I wanted to be a bagger at our local grocery store and I'd spend all my money on toys and candy for my kids. Bright side, I'm not a bagger at a grocery store and am finishing a degree that will probably make having a child or three financial feasible if my partner also is stable enough.

I deal with social anxiety so I'm not exactly someone who loves to go out dancing or go to bars, like, ever. But if you love the idea of going to a concert (please not right up front in the pit, my old brittle bones can't handle it) or walking cute pups in the forest or just being a lazy piece of shit at home with me then baby, we've got a stew going.

I work third shift at a hospital currently while finishing my degree so my sleep schedule is weird. Basically everything about me is probably weird to some degree, but I do think I'm good people. I've been in therapy before and think mental health is a serious thing that isn't given nearly enough credence. I love sharing memes back and forth and being up each other's butts, most of my free time is spent at my computer watching YouTube videos or playing whatever video game is my new hyperfixation (Hi, Deadlock!)

I could probably write a billion more paragraphs if I tried but I'm starting to second guess this entire post because it feels a little too sadcore, so instead I think I'll just post it. I hope if anyone takes a look here they at least have a good time reading through my ramblings, even if at the end they think I'm the worst person on earth. I want all of us to find what we're looking for on here and have an amazing night. Thanks Reddit, take 'er easy.