after years of searching i am slowly understanding myself more and what makes me happy. loads of people are confused why i am depressed despite having a very good life and owning my own home. i think is because at this age i crave more than video games. throughout my 20s i built a good life for myself but i constantly feel like i have no backbone, which is a partner, who is different from friends, or my parents. i absolutely need to feel deeply loved, and cared for by someone in a romantic way to give me the motivation i need to keep going. i have done lots of traveling in my 20s and slowly i realized no scenery is good when i feel lonely and alone. one of my biggest fear is not being able to go to the hospital when i am old...despite me having a good income and career, i am looking for to be a homemaker after i find a partner because that makes me feel taken care of and security.

i am looking for a very capable man who is responsible, smart, and financially capable to build a life of happiness, to travel the world together, and into my hobbies of fishing and sea foraging. 30-45, educational background, occupation and temper mean a lot to me because i am very traditional. please include those in your reply

i must add i am deeply annoyed by people who cannot read because i get flooded by messages "looking for frends", people who cant meet up because they are "short", like if you cant even meet up then how are you ready to start a family?? also lots of 5050 proposals when i clearly said i want to be a homemaker because it makes me feel more supported...

in your response please include your picture and your hobbies and why you responded to my post