Why am I sad? Because I miss somebody. I feel like a broken record because that's honestly all I ever talk about when I write these posts on here to try to get people to talk to me. Honestly it makes me come off as pathetic.

But yeah, it's been over a year and that person's probably never coming back. I don't really know if I'm trying to move on, this is obviously not the right way to go about it, but I am lonely. Unfortunately, as my own history shows myself, when I'm sad and lonely my unhealthy coping mechanism is trying to find people on the internet to talk to, to give me attention and affection, I just want to be wanted and loved.

You can see you in another post of mine in my local r4r but honestly what I really wanted at this point, as bad as it sounds, is to jump into something even if it's fake, I just crave intimacy and attention and affection. I miss having somebody to talk to all the time about my life and to hear about theirs. I miss the love and attention, the affection, and yeah the sex; yeah kind of hypersexual and that's another unhealthy coping mechanism of mine but I don't like focusing on that in these posts because that's not at all my sole goal I want.

If you're somehow still reading this and you're somehow interested, here's some stuff about me: I'm 28, from Texas, work in a science-related job (about the only thing keeping me sane at this point). In my free time, don't really do much, I like going for drives, watching stuff, sometimes playing stuff. I'm not the most exciting. That's another reason why I'm posting, I really wish I had somebody to just hang out with in my free time, just the two of enjoying each other's company.

Physically; I'm 5'6, white, dark brown hair, brown eyes, glasses, average build (not exactly skinny but not fat even though I think I am because I hate how I look, woohoo self hated), kind of just nerdy looking overall. Personality-wise I would much rather have somebody else lead the conversation and relationship/friendship, I'm much more quiet and reserved and just have a submissive personality (submissive as in my entire personality is, I've been called a pushover. It's not entirely sexual, even though bit of it is too).

If you've somehow made it this far and actually want to message me, that would be amazing. Not really sure what I'm looking for, and honestly anybody is free to message me, so talk to you soon?