I tagged this as NSFW as there are not many topics offlimits to me.

I've been debating about how this should go, how to make myself sound appealing. I've written and rewritten this many times now. I apologize for the long post ahead, but I hope my bared soul will resonate with someone.

I am 5'8", plus size but working on bettering myself in all ways. I have honey brown eyes that darken to a chocolate brown when I'm sad. I blush easily at even a hint of a compliment. I am well endowed and have an hour glass figure. I have 13 tattoos with plans of more in the future. My hair is a red brown and comes to just passed my shoulders. My face will show you how I feel the very moment I feel it, even if I'm not sure how I feel at that time.

I am not for the weak. I am not for the bored. I am not for someone closed off and reserved. I am an open book. I've been through some serious trauma in my life, but I will gladly talk about it as it's part of what shaped me into who I am. Open communication is very important to me. I find emotions to be confusing and I often struggle with identifying them. If left to my own devices, I will overthink any and every situation until I've managed to convince myself that I am despised, so please communicate with me. I would say my greatest strength is my moral compass. My beliefs and integrity have been the only things to stay fully intact throughout my life. I stand by what I think is right, no matter the consequences.

I am crafty. I love to create things. Whether it be crochet, coloring, building models, or writing a story, I enjoy bringing life to things. In most rpgs I play, I am the cleric. I find it resonates with my core values the most. I am always trying to help people and animals, almost to a point where it's damaging to myself.

I love video games. I'm about halfway through with Hogwarts Legacy right now. I find it difficult to play FPSs as I've always lacked the ability to "git gud", but I LOVE to watch others play the games I suck at. I also love Pokemon, animal crossing, Final Fantasy (8 and 10 are my favorites), Harvest Moon, Resident Evil 4 and many more.

I love anime. I love horror. I love gore. Please put Klingon Girl somewhere in your message so I know you read through my post! Scary movies and cuddles are some of my favorite activities!

I love to bake. You cook dinner and I'll make dessert! My specialty is chocolate chip cookies, though I am great with cakes, breads, and brownies as well. I'm trying my hand at making my own pie crust.

Music is very important to me. I guess you could say I even speak in song. If I send you something, 9 times out of 10 it's a big part of my soul, who I am as a person. Listen to the lyrics with your heart (corny, I know!) and you will know me. Hell and You by Amigo the Devil is probably a good song to showcase where I'm at and what I want to some degree.

I guess what I'm looking for is a soulmate, but I mean it a little differently than some. To me, I like to think that all a soulmate is is a speck of star dust I used to share space with back before the big bang. Soulmates aren't just romantic, but friend and familial as well. We get along so well, we feel like we've known each other for our whole lives... Because we used to vibe together as a speck of dust.

This isn't to say that I'm all rainbows and butterflies. I have weird peculiarparities and self imposed rules for how I do certain things. I battle with depression, BPD, anxiety and more. I'm dense. I can be messy. I will push your buttons... But I love hard. I'm dedicated, loyal, silly, and kind.

So after all this rambling and me me me, I guess I made this post to find someone like me. Creative. Kind. Damaged but not broken down. Sweet. Geeky. Tolerant. Let's go for walks and take pictures of flowers. Let's stay in and play Mario party. Let's have a drink and a good meal. Let's have fun. Let's fall in love.

Bonus: kinky, smoke, drink, somewhat active, trek > wars, otaku.

Thank you for your time!