hi, I prefer to be very straightforward. I have had depression for a while and after lots of thinking i am thinking maybe it is a more anxiety of nesting as a woman. as i see people i know get married and have kids i am feeling more and more lonely and lost. I have no interest that is strong enough for me to not constantly fear being alone. this fear is also exacerbated by the fact that i am also aging.i have experienced and done a fair bit of traveling, seen the world and now i have hit a place where i am not even excited for anything in life because i have done so much and i just dont want to be alone. friends and family just dont cut it because i want to feel loved by a man. i am deeply disgusted by this desperation and fear but at the same time it is the reality and real feelings i get everyday.

i am looking to be a homemaker because being taken care of makes me feel loved.

i am seeking a caring, loyal, responsible, and financially capable real man who is down to meet up and move things at a fast pace. who knows what he wants and has left the drama and playing around phrase. 30

as for myself, i am a very good cook and baker, when feeling loved and secure, i enjoy the beach, fishing, and sea foraging.

even though i am in such a dark place, i hope with love i can heal and i'd like to travel with my partner to discover the rest of the world and feel one less day of fear being alone. i guess one good thing about me is am very straightforward and know what i want, i dont play any games and am ready to settle down and start a future together

also, i do not appreciate anyone making comments about "being happy by yourself". understand everyone is different and many people need a life partner to feel secure especially women.

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