Hey there. I am approaching 30 and its been a long journey for me to realize I've got to stop pretending to be someone I am not. I put on a mask to make friends and feel like I belong. But the truth is I don't feel like I belong or that my friends are really close to me. Even in my dating profiles I always would try and make myself seem like more then I was doing at the time. I'm just tired of it. So I'm gonna try a new approach. I'm just gonna say who I am and what I am looking for without the fake appearances.

I'm a homebody and enjoy my time just sitting and watching youtube or scrolling through reddit when I want to kill time. I like to play video games when a new game peaks my interests but havn't been playing a lot have lately. Paper mario was the latest one though and I am enjoying reliving my childhood favorite game. I'm dealing with a lot of self-esteem issues wherre I feel like there really isn't anyone out there for me. I have a very stable job which I enjoy and allows me to live comfortably. It is no 6 figure salary but it pays the bills and my set up lets me save when I want. I've started a workout routine yesterday with the goal to lose 30Ibs and to eat healthier. I usually do one big trip each year to go someplace new and excites me. Japan was that trip for me this year. I have enough vacation time for another trip this year and I would love to find someone special to go with. I have family in Hawaii so I visit occasionally for some peace and quiet. Besides all that I really don't have much new about me, though I'd like to change that in the coming year. My new roommates are pushing me to be more social and try new things which is something I've desparately needed.

I'm looking for someone who doesn't have it all figured out. I hate when people pretend to be something they are not. I want to hear the faults and the truama. I'd also like to find someone who just wants to connect with me. Long term or short term, I just want to connect above all else so how that relationship goes will be up to us. I'd like someone who can have a day laying in bed doing whatever we want and not feel bad about wasting the day away. Someone to take a trip one a year to a far away place we plan out months in advance. And just someone who just wants to be with me because it's me and not because they just want to be in a relationship. I enjoy a kind personality. And someone to play Coop video games with.

Well that is me. I feel like there is a lot of "I" statements that makes it feel egotistical. But hey, maybe that is me as well haha. Hope you are sick of the masks too and want something genuine. Feel free to reach out if this post peaked your interest. I look forward to hearing about you.