Hey everyone!

Long story so get your popcorn haha. TL;DR is the title

I've spent the last few years in a very serious relationship, where I planned on marrying the person I was with. Until she cheated on me and when I caught her she broke things off. Unfortunately my HS sweetheart before that, also cheated on me after two years of being together and when I caught her, she also broke up with me.

I think it's safe to say that I'm really just used to this by now, and after this last one I found myself getting turned on by reading the messages of my ex sexting and planning hook ups behind my back. I would've offered an open relationship had she not of broken things off as soon as I suggested we work on rebuilding things.

I don't know if it's me wanting an open relationship to take control of what I'm worried about happening again, if it's just a kink/fantasy thing. Or if this is the relationship type that I'm meant to be in.

Regardless, I want to try being in one. Really I prefer someone local or close to me for obvious reasons. I'm open to long distance considering the type of relationship, but really would just prefer local.

Now about me, I'm not a bad looking guy. I'm slightly above average in my opinion. I'm white, I have brown hair and eyes, I'm not buff or skinny, but I'm also not chunks haha. I have a nicely toned average ish body. Personality wise, I'm really caring and my love language is acts of service so I love being there for someone else.

What I'm looking for, is someone that I can fall for both physically and emotionally. I have this whole ideology as shallow as it is that I want to be the reacher in this dynamic. I feel like if I'm emotionally connected, but also feel like you're the better looking one, it'd build that jealous feeling inside and acting on that feeling is what I feel would really tie this together for me.

I definitely would like to talk and get to know each other so feel free to message me (: Once there's a decent connection I'm happy to share pics and move to messaging elsewhere!