Heya, I know this is a bit of a weird/strangely titled post, and honestly I suppose the contents are a bit "cringe" to a lot of people, and I accept that judgement, but I'm going to continue anyway.

To make a long story MUCH shorter so that this isn't a 20,000 word post, as a child I lived a normal life up until the 2nd grade, when my mother spiraled deeply into mental illness. Her reasoning: "They're trying to turn you (and everyone) gay.". Obviously this is absolutely ridiculous. The following years were spent living in a car sometimes having a home for a year or so, until of course my Mom lost whatever job she was working at the time because of "so and so from management is gay/another race and didn't like her" (Really her mental illness) and the cycle would repeat.

The abuse exceeded just that though, she then kept me socially isolated from pretty much everyone because supposedly everyone was out to take advantage of me or beat me up. She wouldn't let me out of her sight for more than an hour and would force me to come to work with her every day, or sit in the car (half the time also our home!) outside of her work.

There's a WHOLE lot more to my story but I don't want to share it in my reddit post just because it'll make it way too long to read. So I'll get to why I'm looking for someone supportive in my life.

The answer is simple really. I'm alone. My mother's side of the family is rife with a menagerie of mental illness, which none of them believe they have. NONE of them have your best intention at heart. My Dad has been so far removed from my life and even he has barely a relationship with his family just because he has a loner-type attitude demeanor. He's mentally stable but he now has kids he's taking care of from his new wife's side and doesn't have time for me at all.

Right now I'm really struggling to find my path in life and figure out what to pursue as a career. I still need to get my GED but I've definitely decided my path most likely lies in me starting my own business as it's clear that at least here in the US, you can either be the cattle or the rancher. And I want to be the rancher. I have some business ideas, just trying to figure out how to start them.

This goes without saying probably, but I'm just looking for something platonic, I really need someone there for me right now. Times are tough and I want someone to make proud. If you're interested in getting to know me and think you might be able to be there for me, then please don't hesitate to message. Lastly, even though I'm looking for something platonic I strongly prefer someone around my age or older.

Ultimately I want to defy the crappy hand of cards life dealt me in my childhood. But I need help to do it.