Hiya,

first of all, the posts I made a couple of months ago are no longer up to date so don't refer to them!! I've realized some things are essential for me in a relationship and I'm not willing to back down on them... I don't have high hopes for this, however I figured my chances might still be higher on here than elsewhere, so let's give it a go

About me:

A comp. linguistics (think autocorrect, TTS/speech recognition, dictionaries etc.) major with no real goals or joys in life I feel like I don't even do anything in my free time these days, I just educate myself on niche topics, watch yt... but 95 % of the time I just listen to music and get stuck in my head And honestly, I'm more okay being like this since I don't think I have anything to look forward to in the outer workd anyway

The idea of a romantic relationship is probably the only thing keeping me afloat, I've had that excruciating feeling of something missing since... well, forever, but started associating it with romance around the age of 12 Despite craving it so deeply, I've never been in a real relationship, just got mentally abused by an attention whoaré when I was 14-15 and it took me a fair amount of time to recover from that and other subsequent stabs in the back...

I'm gray/aplatonic, panromantic and demisexual, however I'd really like to have my own kid(s) someday, sorry XY folks :/ I've recently had an existential crisis over that I'm also visually impaired (nystagmus) so I can't play most sports (in fact, I don't do any but I've been think about maybe giving swimming a try) or drive a car for example, I don't wear glasses (anymore) tho since they don't help at allMy interests/thing I like include computer science, wacky politics (dw, I'm mostly apolitical irl, I just like to shitpost), music, music production, philosophy, anime, cats, travelling, alternative art forms and other nerdy stuf... But as I've said, I ain't exactly crazy about any of those, nor do I actively work on any projects (would be delighted to work on something together tho 👉👈)

If this part is of great importance for you, then probably don't even message me but here it is: I'm not opposed to sharing pics but defs not atm since I look like crépe and really need a haircut ... dark blonde hair, thick eyebrows, blue (wiggly) eyes, usually clean shaven, RBF, rather skinny, extremely unathletic for reasons mentioned above, seasonal seborrhea (like dandruff but worse and not just on the scalp), fairly tall (183 cm)

In summary, these are my potential red flags:

• yandere/emotionally dependent and fixated on the idea of mutual exclusivity (not just romantic!), so like monogamy to the power of... infinity xd
• moody (either super anxious/depressed, or empty and totally uniterested)
• hella chaotic
• INFP 4w5 468 sx/sp (that's my MBTI some enneagram stuff)
• not financially independent atm and live w my family when I don't have classes (ik, duh, but I still feel like I need to mention it)
• socially anxious

About you:

• willing to have kids someday (no pressure tho)
• little to no experience => body count = 0
• fond of exclusivity
• located relatively close or at least willing to meet up irl
• age range: 18-30 (imma get spammed by creeps but I suppose it's worth it lol)
• generally similar to me, that's it :) even those "red flags" are more than welcome

Bonus point if you're:

• taller than me
• also on the ace/apl spectrum
• dominant/assertive
• into CG/L
• a silly goofster

If you've made it this far, have a cookie! 🍪 If, by any chance, you think you might be the one I'm looking for, my dms are open

^{I've basically lost all hope at this point but... still, I hope you're out there, I really want you to be}