This post is mainly for those (woman only please) who understands me. I’m not someone who just goes around trying to grab everyone so I will be brutally honest if I’ve yet to find what I’m looking for.

If you read this, say “I read your profile” and that you’re in NYC

Before I explain I would like to say a little about me. I am black, 5’9 and weigh 210. I am overweight but have been losing which is going really well. I like to go to movies, walks, aquariums, play games and watch any type of show. I prefer indoors but would like to explore and go out more. I’m pretty awkward and shy.

Anyways, I’m someone who has anxiety and scared to sleep with someone. The main cause was just me having no self confidence and afraid of how people would feel about me. Mostly my weight or my p size. I feel like both aren’t bad but it’s just all in my head. Regardless, depression and late puberty were like the main causes of the two. I’ve been given opportunities to try but some people I’ve met come off differently. It’s almost like it is their whole personality. Or people trying to ask for mon. I’m someone who wants to get the feel of who I’m with, understand each other, not Judge each other. Most of this can just be me overthinking but I’m pretty much someone who likes to take these type of things seriously. I can tell when someone is trying to “act” I just know when someone isn’t trying to understand me or want me to understand them. Some might say get a relationship but that’s not so simple. I’ve yet to find someone I want to spend awhile with yet so why not try to explore one of my main issues?

There is so much to making love that people don’t understand. There is a reason why there are so many guys here trying to make love as if the people they are looking for are a tool.

I had to edit this due to post issues 😂 so it might sound off.