But once the realization is accepted that even between the closest people infinite distances exist, a marvelous living side-by-side can grow up for them, if they succeed in loving the expanse between them, which gives them the possibility of always seeing each other as a whole and before an immense sky.

-Rainer Maria Rilke

Intro

Hey my name's David or Dave or Davie. No difference to me. I'm looking for connections really(Leading to something deeper is really awesome but I don't have expectations), I have the next two days off someone to just chat with would be nice or to watch a movie or some anime with. Specifically tonight I'm off work @ 1am(I'm going to the hospital this morning) and I have a desire to re-watch spice and wolf so if you're down :).

I'm working through some writing about language as a means of communication. The core thoughts are around - how it(language) doesen't accurately portray what we may try to explain or relate to others and how I often find myself feeling as if I'm not actually having conversations with people.(Often times it feels like you're not connecting, it's two people going through their dialogue tree) I believe there are a handful of people on earth that you'll be able to share deeper connections with despite how flawed language is as a medium to communicate and I'd love for this post to be a means to meet someone like that.

I'm going to be moving to quebec shortly. I've contemplated a few locations in Canada. I'm from the GTHA but I think the challenge of being in an environment where I won't only be socially isolated but I'll be isolated with language will either cause my brain to go boom or force me to become more of the person I want to be. I love the culture compared to a lot of other places in Canada(having travelled relatively minimally though). I love the people even though it felt like sometimes they didn't like me. And I plan on assimilating to the culture prior to the move and making sure I do what I have to when I get there to not just be the ontario kid moving there. Getting to know someone from Quebec who might have some similar interests would be awesome but this post isn't limited to that.

Goals for the post or what I'm looking for

A connection with anyone really. I feel pretty existentially lonely, and I value things that take that feeling away from me. Ultimately I don't know if a relationship will stem from anything(I don't do the online dating thing so we'd have to see) but getting to know people and seeing where those connections lead is valuable to me. I touched on other things in the introduction but more specifically about the individuals I'm looking for... I like chatting with people who have opinions, and who aren't too judgmental. The things you hate the most about yourself I'll tend to find the best beautiful or interesting. If you play vidya that's awesome because chatting gaming maybe learning some language would be a pretty amazing.

About me

People care about physicals so I'll get that out. (Pictures are newest to oldest) 6'2 - 6'3, dad bodish now but won't be for long. Still on the physical side I play basketball and walk way too much. Outside of that I've lived a life I think most movie producers would scratch out because it seems too unrealistic. There's a lot of things I'm processing in my trauma departments and I'm working towards being the best person I think I can be. I've seen myself fail there and I don't intend on that becoming a pattern going forward.

I enjoy film and music. Mathrock midwest emo, rap are kind of my go tos. I'm big into Nolan films or things that make you think. I write poetry and music. I just wrote a small book ish thing that's kind of about the last 10 years of my life that I'm pretty proud of. I just started to get back into anime, Vinland saga was kinda my gateway to starting again and if someone has recommendations or is down to watching something with me I'd love to.

I don't drink much. I plan on reducing that to very rarely going forward. I don't smoke weed often but I don't mind people who do(I don't mind being around alcohol either). Mushrooms are amazing but again a pretty once in a while thing for me.

I've had a really shit start to the year. Got really sick in December, broke my ribs aand then got pneumonia because broken ribs not moving. Lost a close friend recently(OD'd) and now my mother(who I'm not close with) has cancer and I don't think she's going to make it. I intend on turning the year around though but it's been a rough start to it.

Tell me about yourself ? What's your favorite meal ? Favorite memory ? Let's play like word association or something I don't know.

I look forward to maybe hearing from you.

Sincerely,

David