I'm 40 years old and started smoking in the Army as a way to shirk normal work responsibilities. As dumb as that sounds, it really was a good way to get a break in the military. 20 years later I have found myself hating my dependence on nicotine to function.

More recently my habit had developed Into around a pack a day as well as supplemental zyn pouches throughout. My health has been declining and I find myself questioning more and more why do I do this to myself.

Yesterday I made the decision. I finished my last cigarette (over 37 hours ago). Emptied the ash trays and put them up. Cleaned up all the butts and downloaded a quitting app.

At first I thought I would still zyn to help with the cravings, but after some consideration I have committed to going nicotine free cold turkey. I currently hate myself and am annoying everyone around me.

Being around a bunch of non-smokers makes it impossible to convey what I'm going through. They don't really understand or care to support me. As much as I am doing this for myself, it really does help to have someone offering words of encouragement from time to time. I'd like to offer the same back to anyone else that may need it.

Day 2 isn't anything special, but it's a start right? For anyone else struggling, feel free to reach out to me. Share a little about your story or what you're going through. What has helped you get through the gauntlet of cravings and more importantly... How are you feeling now?