I quit on November 28th, 2023 and successfully kicked the habit for about 2 months. But I’ve been in a bad relapse for about a month because I told myself it would be okay to “just have one” cigarette or hit of a vape and it just brought me back to square one.

I tried to quit again a couple weeks ago and didn’t make it past day 3 because I didn’t anticipate how hard it would be because days 1 and 2 were actually very easy. So this time, I anticipated that it may actually get worse over time and not easier. I was right and this time I was prepared. Yesterday was so hard. Nearly had a panic attack. But I just took some deep breaths and kept trying to focus on the moment. I did not give in!

I feel so happy right now. I feel like I’m back on the right track. But I’m not going to fool myself into thinking that the worst of it is over. I have to stay strong and assume that there will be more intense cravings in the future in order to keep my mind strong. But yay! I’m doing it!

As always, I love this sub. I love the encouragement. I love that you all share your stories with such vulnerability and care for each other. Keep up the good work everyone!

Edit: day 4 kicked my ass! Just felt generally shitty and anxious all day. But I did not give in. I even hung around a friend who was hitting her vape constantly and I didn’t ask for a hit. Day 5 better watch out cause nothing can stop me now.