Trying to be as proactive as I can be during this experience. So I thought I'd share my thoughts.

I'm actively going through the WD's right now. I'm uncomfortable as fuck lol. Definitely worse so far (and quicker) than my WD's during my last detox from alcohol. Since I'm already in recovery from previous substance use/abuse, I'm kinda feeling resentful toward myself. Sort of wanna kick my own ass for putting myself through all of this. Again.

I'm also under-prepared. I made this choice absolutely on a whim just yesterday. Straight up just said done lol. The emotional aspect is pretty rough already too. I keep wanting to mix up a shot and then don't really know what to do with myself. Mourning it pretty hard right now. It's gonna be a crazy trip, but definitely gonna be worth it. Well, was any of my kratom use worth what I'm going through now? No lol. But, I think it'll be worth it when I can look back and appreciate K (from a distance) for what it was. And, it truly was a necessary step in my recovery. It helped me so much, dudes! Kept me off the bottle and I'll forever be grateful for that and grateful that I was able to step away when it was time! But, that's just my perspective.

These reddits and this group are so helpful. You're all helping me way more than you know just by showing me I'm not alone! Keep fighting the good fight, friends. It's time to pay the piper, but our future selves will thank us later. 🖤