I watch porn and I love watching BDSM. I’m straight and I love watching girls. I never watch gay porn. But I would love a mistress to cage my cock and use my ass and me as she wishes. Well it’s hard to find a mistress. So a few years ago I meet up with some guy and he tied me up and used toys on me. I loved it. I had no sexual attraction to the guy I just didn’t want to have control anymore. Well no most of the time I regret it but is I’m horny or spent some time in my chastity cage or even to sit down and watch porn for a quick one I crave it I just want to be tied up and used but ik I’ll regret it. What do I do? Why is it like that? What are your opinions on it?