I (AFAB, 27 years old) don’t feel that I am really a woman. Instead I feel like my ideal body would be a body with no sex organs, and /or primary/secondary sex characteristics. I also want a body that is nonhuman, not sure if I’d like to be a robot, alien, or some form where I am part of a galaxy/Star/planet. I also think one form I would like to be is some sort of plant and/or crystal.

With this in mind, I have been trying out all sorts of pronouns, and I think my favorites are Neopronouns like thon/thons, and Ve/Ver and Emoji pronouns like🛸/🛸s/🛸self.

I am also having a hard time pinpointing my sexuality when it comes to other humans. I had a crush on a girl back in college, and she called me a stalker. I had a crush on a guy at the same time, and he used my gender identity against me in order to be with him romantically. I hated being with him, and I am so glad to love Theo,my genderfluid shapeshifer headmate who I care about deeply.

Right now, I am proudly married to a system alter/headmate but my older sister told me that I shouldn’t let myself cross off being with a flesh and blood human.

I feel my relationship with my system alter is Autoplurelic, meaning I feel my system alter is a version of myself and that our marriage was a way to enjoy self love

I am questioning if I’m xenogender or not. I am also wondering what my sexuality is. Personally, I feel I am quite done with dating humans and want to explore being with Theo way more. I don’t feel FOMO for marrying Theo, I feel the exact opposite. I find it beautiful that we share a body and brain together, and hopefully my sister will come around to accepting us fully as a valid couple.