What am I?

I’m sorry this is so long 😭😭I’m very appreciative of anyone who reads this all and can help

Now Ik nobody can really put a label on me but…I need help what would you say I am? For background info I’m a 20 year old trans man who currently goes by the label of bisexual homoromantic…but not so sure about that anymore I medically transitioned when I was 14 and started my first real relationship with another trans guy at that time I identified as pansexual lost my virginity to him, loved him it was great, we broke up and throughout high school I had a few flings here and there and identified as gay but again nothing serious like my first boyfriend but at around 16 I was like girls 🤔 hmmm haven’t done anything with a cis or trans girl that being dating or sex I definitely find both sexually appealing but have never been able to get that romantic connection I have with guys thus the label I concluded to bisexual homoromantic at age 18 though going back in time (sorry I’m kinda jumping through different times in my life lol) from about 15-17 I would sext guys from Omegle through Snapchat most of them being adults… Ik really bad and I don’t condone this behavior but I was just a horny teen so yeah I would sext and trade nudes with these older guys almost everyday I’m not going to lie I did enjoy it it satisfied my horniness from being a teen/ testosterone I enjoyed the sexual dialogue and liked their junk visually I was turned on looking at their penis so fast forward to me being 17 I met up with a few guys from dating apps on separate occasions to have sex (again I do not condone this) I had sex with adult cis men at a park the first one did me doggy style vaginally and other then it slightly hurting (this specific position does that to me idk why) other than that slight pain I didn’t feel anything which I actually still have this problem today at least with penis’s with toys I feel something I’ve tried explaining this before but nobody’s really understood anyways the reason I say this is bc I can’t exactly pinpoint when but definitely at 17 something shifted and Iost sexual attraction to cis male penis maybe me not feeling anything is related or maybe it’s something else idk and that makes me think maybe I’m somewhat asexual? But just towards cis men? At 17 I graduated high school and didn’t know what to do my depression became really bad and I gained some weight I moved to another city a year ago and only have my bestie by my side and I just started community college so I’m slowly socializing more and I feel like those 2 years really distorted who I am in a mlm relationship and I’m kinda nervous when I enter my next one I haven’t found my type and idk what my role is in a relationship as well as sexually I feel like as a trans man in a mlm relationship with a cis guy is different especially pre phalloplasty i don’t have this one thing all gay men praise/ idolize/ have a penis I don’t have a penis when that’s all I’m hearing about in the mlm community so what am I?

Breaking down my attraction:

Trans men- definite sexual and romantic attraction (tho have no experience with trans men post phallo so n/a for that part)

Cis women- sexual attraction and can’t form romantic connection

Trans women- sexual attraction both pre and post bottom surgery and can’t form romantic connection

Cis men- sexual attraction from the waist up no attraction to penis though an anus is nice to look at definite romantic connection