Im a bisexual F32 dating another bisexual F27 . My girlfriend had few sexual experiences with girls but she is not familiar and lack of experience with lesbian sex, some years ago she was SA and that created traumas , after that she was in a relationship with a guy for 5 years , that relationship was really depressing for her and hard because she couldn’t have sex with her partner and when he will ask for it she will have panic attacks! After that relationship was over , she started dating another guy but just for sex and she was able to have a lot of sex with him! After that , I met her and she will be having sex with different guys but was really hard for her to have sex with me for the first time cause she felt inexperienced and intimidated by me, she didn’t want to disappoint me ! I always wonder why with this random guys she will have sex but with me was so complicated.

We started dating and she told me that she wanted to try an open relationship , because she wanted to enjoy and have everything she missed during the messy 5 years relationship she had with that guy, I understood her desire and even I was not really convinced by the idea , I accepted, this open relation was for 4 months, at the beginning it was open on her side only , she started having sex with a guy and she had an amazing time, I asked how was that relationship going with him and she told me it’s just sex , she doesn’t have any feelings for him or want something more with him, the guy fell in love with her and things got complicated , I started seeing 2 more people and she will get really jealous , I also got really jealous when she will tell me about him ! Well, long story short, she got distance with the guy because he was catching feelings and because she didn’t think that I was gonna date other people like she was doing and she couldn’t handle it . The guy she was seeing , started to send me random me messages cause he knew I was gonna get upset or that he doing that was gonna cause problems between my gf and I. That relationship between them finish , mostly because he crossed the line by texting me and getting me into the drama that I never wanted to be part of ! After that my gf decided to close the relationship because she can’t handle me to be with somebody else and cause she loves me and it’s in love with me, I feel the same way! But this past month she has no desire for sex and that makes me feel really insecure , also I asked her why was she able to have sex with the guy of the open relationship more than with me and she told me because is quick and easy for her and that she is familiarize with guys that she feels that she doesnt know what she is doing when having sex with me and feels like I might feel bored of he not knowing but what hurts me the most is that she told me that maybe the next sex of her life was with him so I asked her why you are not with him instead, her respond is that sometimes she misses sex with guys but not enough to bring it up to me ! That she loves having sex with me but it’s not what she knows .I know she loves me and that I I’m the love of her life and she makes me feel it every single day but the idea that I’m not best sex , give me a lot of doubts and makes me think she will be back with him for sex. Any advice ? Don’t know how to control my thoughts even though she reassurance me and love me! HELP

What should I do?