Before you sharpen your knives, hear me out...

I've been on a retention journey for over a year now, and it's been very tumultuous. I think in terms of discipline and how that affects one's psyche and inner being, then retaining can be beneficial. However nothing else has presented itself to me from this practice.

It doesn't matter whether I've retained 30 days or 1, the differences are subtle or negligible. Sometimes I jack off 15 minutes before going out and I'm still charismatic, magnetic, full of life and good vibes and on the flip side I've held my semen for weeks and gone out and been anxious, on edge, not myself... honestly oftentimes I feel WORSE as a person when I retain. People in the community tell me its the "flatline" or "purging" or whatever else.

Well unfortunately I'm not doing any practice to feel worse!

Overall I don't know what the point of this post is, I'm not trying to convince anyone it doesn't work, nor am I trying to discount personal experiences. I'm just frustrated that the magic is missing for me. I think I'm about done trying.

UPDATE** So I reached climax and released 3x yesterday when this post was made. I kid you not, I went to the gym today and a chick with a fat ass came up to me and asked for MY number! I can’t make this up. That’s what I mean about magnetism/aura/essence etc. Seems to be unknown factors at play?