I don’t even know where to begin, but I really need to get this off my chest. I feel like complete shit, and honestly, I just need someone to tell me how much of an idiot I’ve been. I’ve been living by myself for months in a huge apartment, and I’ve been struggling with loneliness, anxiety, and depression. It’s been tough, and recently, the isolation has felt unbearable. I guess in a moment of emotional weakness, I went to a pet store. I didn’t think it through—I just thought that maybe getting a puppy would help me feel better. Maybe having a little companion would fix things, or at least make the loneliness easier to bear. Well, I really fucked up. I impulsively bought an expensive puppy without doing any research. I didn’t even think about how much responsibility it would be. And now, just a week after bringing this puppy home, the poor thing is sick. I feel so guilty. I spent all this money, and now I’m overwhelmed. The stress is only making my anxiety and depression worse. There hasn’t been a single day this week that I haven’t cried. Every day feels like I’ve made a huge mistake, and I just can’t shake the guilt. I’ve started reading reviews on the business, and everything points to how bad pet stores are. I’ve been told by pretty much everyone in my life that I was manipulated and taken advantage of. I’ve heard people tell me that I should’ve gone to a rescue or at least done more research. And I get it. I know I should have. But the worst part is, I can’t stop beating myself up over it. I keep thinking I’m a fucking idiot for making such an impulsive decision. I’m just looking for some honesty here. I know it’s been a stupid mistake, and I’m already punishing myself enough. I just need to hear it from someone else, someone who won’t sugarcoat it. How much of an idiot have I been? How badly have I fucked up? I just want to know that I’m not crazy for feeling this way right now.